Feb 08, 2022 19:05
A black rainbow. Something sought after but impossible to attain.
I've had an outline for a graphic novel sitting in a drawer for a few years.
It's called "Things Doctors Have Said to Me in Real Life."
At first, I thought it was going to be a zine. But then I started writing the stories of being gaslit by doctors since I was such a little kid.
I was really sick with COVID in 2020, at the height of things in NYC, when they were putting bodies in refrigerated trucks and nurses were wearing trash bags for PPE. I wouldn't go to the hospital because they were overburdened, even though I was almost a week into not being able to breathe at a level that normally would have sent me straight to the ER.
And when I talked to my therapist about it, I realized that I didn't go because there were so many times that I was told, "It can't be that bad," or "It shouldn't hurt that way," or simply treated like a drug-seeker.
I think I'll tell some of those stories here. It will be the script for my graphic novel. Maybe it won't be impossible to attain after all.