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[moshley]

I've been doing these every month or so updates and i personally think it's better that way. I turn 20 years old in 19 minutes, not so excited about getting old. Birthdays are fun though I hung out with all my grandparents today and it was a lot of fun to finally be able to be like in on all the talks and jokes. I love my family. I love my mom and am thrilled about our new relationship that is blooming. I will be working all the rest of the week until saturday evening probably. I am going to move out with some of my best friends and a newer friend. I honestly think this time it will work out. We have our heart set on a certain place and we find out tomorrow what happens with it. All I can say is I really hope we get it. We want to live on Tipperary Hill. All my past bills are almost caught up. I am trying to figure out what I am gonna do about a new car, that is all up in the air but I will definitely have one within the next few months. I went to Buffalo over the weekend and all I can say is Buffalo has definitely lost my interest. There are a few people that I love to death there but as for living there, never again. I guess as of late I have tried to fix some friendships, it hasnt worked for various reasons so I guess they just aren't meant to be what they once were but I have an open door policy with anyone I hold close to my heart. I am trying to not be so judgmental. I miss Jade a ton and I screwed that up a lot but she is happy and that is amazing. With or without me that's what I want for that girl. I miss stephany everyday and her and I have had some contact and I am almost positive things wont be changing anytime soon but we are at least on good terms.I miss so much about everyone and about myself. It sucks to get old but we all have to do it. I obviously hate paragraphs so sorry to anyone who reads this but I like to ramble. Boys- no time but i do have a crush. I have just been working and spending so much time with genna,mick and mariko that i have no time for that. I havent been physical with anyone in over 4 months and it doesnt bother me at all.Anyways I don't really know what else is up in my life. Just work,friends and family. I would like to keep it this way.

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