hello life...
Personal journal update time.
Yes.
Um...update. I'm starting wonder things. which isn't good. I hate when my mind wonders....it only leads me to bad thoughts and hurt feelings. Damn that stupid fight Brad and I had. Damn me being nervous that one day he's just going to say "Sara, fuck you, I'm outie." Damn. Damn me for gaining weight. Why the hell can I not stay thin?
Needless to say, being told by the one I love, that I need to lose a lot of poundage has severeally lowered my convindence. Hardcore. It sort of seems easier if he had just shot me in the chest. Doubt it would hurt as much. So now, every second I wonder if he's planning on ditching me for someone cooler and thinner.
Damn you food. Why must you tempt me so?
Hello slimfast shakes and attempting not to eat...much.
damnit.letaliondefuse.
Yes.
Um...update. I'm starting wonder things. which isn't good. I hate when my mind wonders....it only leads me to bad thoughts and hurt feelings. Damn that stupid fight Brad and I had. Damn me being nervous that one day he's just going to say "Sara, fuck you, I'm outie." Damn. Damn me for gaining weight. Why the hell can I not stay thin?
Needless to say, being told by the one I love, that I need to lose a lot of poundage has severeally lowered my convindence. Hardcore. It sort of seems easier if he had just shot me in the chest. Doubt it would hurt as much. So now, every second I wonder if he's planning on ditching me for someone cooler and thinner.
Damn you food. Why must you tempt me so?
Hello slimfast shakes and attempting not to eat...much.
damnit.letaliondefuse.