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Yes, so I must say I actually enjoyed being at Heritage. Despite seeing a handful of people...but I saw others that I realize I do care about. I think I'm starting to open up more. I still keep my distance, but it's getting to where I'm beginning to enjoy people for who they are, rather than what I think they are. I went with Leah but we split because we have pretty different social groups. And she went to smoke. On campus. And got caught. Psh... I saw Jonel for the first time since summer and almost pissed myself. I forgot how cool he was to be with. I saw my ex, Alex Gaus. He's fucking beautiful. And cocky. And I saw Amanda. I died. She's amazing. I want to be friends with more girls. Not all of them are bad. Too bad not all of them are like her or Mary. Cause Mary>life. I chilled with Alex D. for the first time since summer last night with a couple of other people. And I decided not to smoke with them. I'm feeling pretty good about it. But I'm trying to keep my word about quitting. Smoking fucks you over in the end.
Today is Darah and Brent's B'nai Mitzvah. Last night, I was dreading going, but now I'm pretty excited. I am in love with Darah.
I want to be happy. I'm not just an angry person. I want to be able to remember the last time I was truly happy. But I can't. It might've been last night, but my mom killed it. Again. When will I learn not to give a shit about what others think and finally make myself happy??
I've barely spoken to my boys since the hurricane.
I <3 Justin and Erk!!
Today is Darah and Brent's B'nai Mitzvah. Last night, I was dreading going, but now I'm pretty excited. I am in love with Darah.
I want to be happy. I'm not just an angry person. I want to be able to remember the last time I was truly happy. But I can't. It might've been last night, but my mom killed it. Again. When will I learn not to give a shit about what others think and finally make myself happy??
I've barely spoken to my boys since the hurricane.
I <3 Justin and Erk!!