gay weekend
so today is senior ditch day and im the only fucking senior not ditching!!! fucking gay thanks mum!
so this weekend was fucking gay. i didnt reallyl talk to my bf and when i did he made me upset. saturday nite was ok i went to Yuri's party and got pretty fucking trashed. which sucks because i know im not supposed to be drinking and i do.. like the way im not supposed to be smoking and i ant fucking quit for the life of me.. fucking sucks.... it isnt because im not allowed its because im pretty much if the verge of death.. health wise. i have super bad kidneys and its not good nor safe and well i just need help.
so Jordan had a bad wweekend too. his mum and her bf are total faggots to him, i just wish he wasnt so young then i could go get him when ever he needed me to but i cant. i miss him and well i judt wish i could fix him.
so i talked to mark last nite for a longgg time. and well he makes me mad sumties because i cant just say "hey i dont like u like that duhhhh" hes just too innocent i mena fuck he's a 20 yr old virgin who lives his life the safe way. i just can curropt someone like that well not to him...
graduation needs to hurry! i hate the fact that its taking sooooo long!!! i just want to be done already and start something new... i need it and really deserve it. i dont know what im doing graduation nite yet. probably go out to din din with my family and then soend time with my boo and yeaahs....
p.s. im getting really nervous about him comming home this time.. i just dont want anything t be fucked up...
so this weekend was fucking gay. i didnt reallyl talk to my bf and when i did he made me upset. saturday nite was ok i went to Yuri's party and got pretty fucking trashed. which sucks because i know im not supposed to be drinking and i do.. like the way im not supposed to be smoking and i ant fucking quit for the life of me.. fucking sucks.... it isnt because im not allowed its because im pretty much if the verge of death.. health wise. i have super bad kidneys and its not good nor safe and well i just need help.
so Jordan had a bad wweekend too. his mum and her bf are total faggots to him, i just wish he wasnt so young then i could go get him when ever he needed me to but i cant. i miss him and well i judt wish i could fix him.
so i talked to mark last nite for a longgg time. and well he makes me mad sumties because i cant just say "hey i dont like u like that duhhhh" hes just too innocent i mena fuck he's a 20 yr old virgin who lives his life the safe way. i just can curropt someone like that well not to him...
graduation needs to hurry! i hate the fact that its taking sooooo long!!! i just want to be done already and start something new... i need it and really deserve it. i dont know what im doing graduation nite yet. probably go out to din din with my family and then soend time with my boo and yeaahs....
p.s. im getting really nervous about him comming home this time.. i just dont want anything t be fucked up...