im in love with saturdays child
my grandfather has been in the hospital since friday, he had surgery today .. he had to get a pace maker and a heart difibulator put into him. I love him so much, and i have been so worried.
i have never felt such rage and anger in such a long time untill today.. i saw home wrecker for the first time since my father died... when i saw her everything in my body just got really hot and i got dizzy and i thought i was about to have a heart attack. I don't understand why she visits my grandparents so much... ITS NOT HER FAMILY.. SHE CANNOT TAKE WHAT I HAVE LEFT OF MY FAMILY. They didnt like her when my dad was alive, and so he dies and they love eachother. fucking idiots.. i understand that grandpa might feel closer to his son by being with the people he surrounded himself by... but does my grandfather not notice that for last year he was alive roxanna only gave him problems and didn't make him so happy. Oh well, she doesn't belong in my family, she'll never be part of it, and i hate her. I never told anyone this.. but i guess im going to blab it to the world: at the funeral.. she was in hysterics the whole time.. and she was all like "what am i going to do with my life now!? wahh wahh wahh i have nothing to live for!!" listen bitch... a) you have no right to say that..how do you think my mother felt when my dad left her? b) not even me or my sister or even my grandparents were that dramatic at the funeral c) you always hated that you werent the first priority in his life... unfortunately it was his kids, parents, work then you.. because your a filthy whore and you should die. I am glad she isn't dead though because I want her to suffer for a reaaallllllyyy long time and die a horribly slow and painful death. BUT here is what makes me really mad.. at the hospital she didn't even greet me when i was sitting with my uncle in the main lobby... i have never been horribly rude to her... and that's just rude. since my father has died she has never called my sister or I... i loved the act she would put on in front of my dad being all friendly, but she really in all honesty feared us and hated us because a) my dad obviously loved us more b) we were making her life more difficult. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! does anyone notice what this woman does to me?!?!?!!? she makes me so evil and mean (well, more than usual lol) if i see her at the hospital again tommorow or the day after im just going to go up to her and say
me - "hey can you help me with a report i have to do for school, i figured you should be the first person to ask"
whore - "sure, what is it?
me "well its actually on wrecking homes and peoples lifes... something you know plenty about"
hahaha i love all the scenarios i play in my head.. i have so many good one liners to tell her, but i wont untill i see her again and she doesnt greet me. the shits gonna hit the fan.
i understand it is unnescasry drama, but its unfinished business i have with her, because i pretended to be civil with her for the soul reason i love my dad so much so i was nice just so he wouldn't get upset... so before you call me a bitch.. think of that.
well my grandpa seems to be doing fine and i only hope he gets better.
wow im angry lol
i have never felt such rage and anger in such a long time untill today.. i saw home wrecker for the first time since my father died... when i saw her everything in my body just got really hot and i got dizzy and i thought i was about to have a heart attack. I don't understand why she visits my grandparents so much... ITS NOT HER FAMILY.. SHE CANNOT TAKE WHAT I HAVE LEFT OF MY FAMILY. They didnt like her when my dad was alive, and so he dies and they love eachother. fucking idiots.. i understand that grandpa might feel closer to his son by being with the people he surrounded himself by... but does my grandfather not notice that for last year he was alive roxanna only gave him problems and didn't make him so happy. Oh well, she doesn't belong in my family, she'll never be part of it, and i hate her. I never told anyone this.. but i guess im going to blab it to the world: at the funeral.. she was in hysterics the whole time.. and she was all like "what am i going to do with my life now!? wahh wahh wahh i have nothing to live for!!" listen bitch... a) you have no right to say that..how do you think my mother felt when my dad left her? b) not even me or my sister or even my grandparents were that dramatic at the funeral c) you always hated that you werent the first priority in his life... unfortunately it was his kids, parents, work then you.. because your a filthy whore and you should die. I am glad she isn't dead though because I want her to suffer for a reaaallllllyyy long time and die a horribly slow and painful death. BUT here is what makes me really mad.. at the hospital she didn't even greet me when i was sitting with my uncle in the main lobby... i have never been horribly rude to her... and that's just rude. since my father has died she has never called my sister or I... i loved the act she would put on in front of my dad being all friendly, but she really in all honesty feared us and hated us because a) my dad obviously loved us more b) we were making her life more difficult. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! does anyone notice what this woman does to me?!?!?!!? she makes me so evil and mean (well, more than usual lol) if i see her at the hospital again tommorow or the day after im just going to go up to her and say
me - "hey can you help me with a report i have to do for school, i figured you should be the first person to ask"
whore - "sure, what is it?
me "well its actually on wrecking homes and peoples lifes... something you know plenty about"
hahaha i love all the scenarios i play in my head.. i have so many good one liners to tell her, but i wont untill i see her again and she doesnt greet me. the shits gonna hit the fan.
i understand it is unnescasry drama, but its unfinished business i have with her, because i pretended to be civil with her for the soul reason i love my dad so much so i was nice just so he wouldn't get upset... so before you call me a bitch.. think of that.
well my grandpa seems to be doing fine and i only hope he gets better.
wow im angry lol