what i'm feeling
Sometimes I feel like I'm the biggest moron in the world, yes I say some things that might be a little odd and I think it's because sometimes I try to hard to get people to like me, which I shouldn't, and I know how stupid that sounds..and sometimes if I'm quiet, I try to say something to join in the coversation and it just comes out wrong all the time. I'm not sure what's wrong with me sometimes, I just have to gain some confidence in myself, that's really all I need, I wish I was the old Darcy like 2 years ago where melissa and I would have sooo much fun laughing all the time at work and where I just didn't give a fuck about what I said, and if people liked it, then that's cool,, but if not, that's cool too. I'm not that way anymore, and I'm nervous all the time and I really need to get over it soon. So I'm sorry to everyone if I'm ever like this around you. I say some shit I don't mean sometimes I guess and I shouldn't. I should just try to be myself. I come home sometimes really depressed just thinking about what the fuck has been wrong with me lately, and I need to figure it out. I know most of you probably think this is crazy in even saying this, but it's just what I'm feeling right now and it sorta sucks I guess.
anyways..I let that out I guess and that felt a little nice.
New years tomorrow, wow this year went by fast.
This year, I'm getting ready to go take some courses to get me into nursing, hopefully starting a band and getting my stupid debt paid off if possible, that's really what i want to do this year. Last year I had goals and I didn't achieve one, but maybe this year will be better. I'm hoping.
Colin and karlene came down and that was AMAZING. I love those kids so much. I wish they came back for good, but next year I guess right? I know I'm selfish in saying this, but I really do miss those guys, I mean I lived with colin for 4 years, so you know, it's just different and kinda weird not having that dude around.
Anyways, I'm off, everyone have an amazing new years!! :)
peace out kiddos!!
anyways..I let that out I guess and that felt a little nice.
New years tomorrow, wow this year went by fast.
This year, I'm getting ready to go take some courses to get me into nursing, hopefully starting a band and getting my stupid debt paid off if possible, that's really what i want to do this year. Last year I had goals and I didn't achieve one, but maybe this year will be better. I'm hoping.
Colin and karlene came down and that was AMAZING. I love those kids so much. I wish they came back for good, but next year I guess right? I know I'm selfish in saying this, but I really do miss those guys, I mean I lived with colin for 4 years, so you know, it's just different and kinda weird not having that dude around.
Anyways, I'm off, everyone have an amazing new years!! :)
peace out kiddos!!