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The passing of my grandma has been hard for me, last night for example was maybe one of my hardest nights of my life. Speaking to my mom for a good hour, hearing her voice and hearing her cry was very saddening. The impact of hearing my family rather then other people cry is more devastating then anything. I try not to talk about this or think about this as much as possible, I don't like putting other people in awkward situations.
Even knowing that this day was going to come relatively soon still made a huge impact on me and was still very shocking. This will take a long time for me to get over it. Everything is reminding me of her. I think tonight helped out a bit, trying to get my mind off it. Seeing some of the people I adore so much helps. Even typing this out and expressing some feelings helps.
It kills me that I was not able to make an appearance at the funeral today, but my thoughts were with them, and that means a lot to me.
I was not a huge fan of one of the supervisors at work giving me a hard time as to why i took half the day off. I called in the day before my shift at 12 and told them that my grandma passed away and needed to stick around at home to see how the funeral went, my mom was going to call me. "well I still don't understand why you couldn't come in" oh work is a pain in the ass sometimes.
Anyways, I love everyone who has been with me during this, my close friends and family. This isn't a call for sympathy, but thanks soo much for the people that have stuck by myside. Greatest friends in the world, you can't ask anything more in friends then what I have.
Take care folks.
Even knowing that this day was going to come relatively soon still made a huge impact on me and was still very shocking. This will take a long time for me to get over it. Everything is reminding me of her. I think tonight helped out a bit, trying to get my mind off it. Seeing some of the people I adore so much helps. Even typing this out and expressing some feelings helps.
It kills me that I was not able to make an appearance at the funeral today, but my thoughts were with them, and that means a lot to me.
I was not a huge fan of one of the supervisors at work giving me a hard time as to why i took half the day off. I called in the day before my shift at 12 and told them that my grandma passed away and needed to stick around at home to see how the funeral went, my mom was going to call me. "well I still don't understand why you couldn't come in" oh work is a pain in the ass sometimes.
Anyways, I love everyone who has been with me during this, my close friends and family. This isn't a call for sympathy, but thanks soo much for the people that have stuck by myside. Greatest friends in the world, you can't ask anything more in friends then what I have.
Take care folks.