I look like a man!
Yes, it's true. After only 16 workouts (I'm keeping track) with Winsor Pilates, I now have that weird lower abdominal cut that Pink, Carmen Electra, and uh...who else? Oh yeah, MEN have!!! You know what I'm talking about...it looks like a funnel.
Ok, it's subtle, and probably nobody else notices. I'll have to post some digital pics for my ljer's soon. My mom (so sensitive, she is), blurted out yesterday, "Have you gained weight?? You look thicker!". Thanks, mom. I'm in this weird stage where I've gained a bunch of muscle mass but still have some extra flab to lose so it looks funny in clothes. If I flex my stomach, you can actually sort of see a 6-pack, so that's exciting. Meanwhile, everything else is not showing much improvement, except maybe my legs. My last shoot (the geisha/bedroom one with VisioLuxus) I had actually balooned up to 143 lbs., and my measurements were 39-27-40. Now they are 38-25-38., and I weigh 127. For those of you who are mad that I am trying to lose weight - don't worry, I still have quite a bit of flab and an hourglass shape.
I'm very impatient. Despite my relatively quick progess, I can't wait to lose more, and am somewhat frustrated that it isn't happening at the pace I would like. But, I'm exercising almost every day (I've only taken a couple of days off so far), I'm eating a very restrictive low-calorie-low-carb-high-protein diet, so I can't do much better than that. I guess I could do more aerobic stuff, but I have to walk my ass everywhere still so I think I'm doing ok. Plus, with my lack of carbs and calories, I probably would kill myself if I spent that much of my day exercising. Plus, I just don't want to spend that much of my day exercising. People like that turn into meatheads.
Ok, on to other topics. In my last post, I mentioned that I was going to do some topless modeling. Since all Jeremy and I have been doing is arguing about it, it's really not worth it to me. So, we reached a comprimise. Basically, I'm just going to keep doing what I've been doing, and if something topless comes along that I truly want to do AND pays decently, I'll do it. Once I seriously get into shape, I want to submit photos to Playboy (at least for the Special Editions, like the book of lingerie, etc. because they are more leanient with body types and stuff), and if by some small miracle I'm actually accepted, that might just be worth the arguing. He reluctantly agreed to that, but I think he thinks that there is no way I would ever get in. Don't get me wrong, he thinks I'm perfect, but perhaps that Playboy wouldn't. Wether I whip into shape or not, I'm still always going to be ghost white and have tattoos and stuff. We'll see what the future holds for me.
Anyhoo, that's all for now. I hope everyone is doing well!
Ok, it's subtle, and probably nobody else notices. I'll have to post some digital pics for my ljer's soon. My mom (so sensitive, she is), blurted out yesterday, "Have you gained weight?? You look thicker!". Thanks, mom. I'm in this weird stage where I've gained a bunch of muscle mass but still have some extra flab to lose so it looks funny in clothes. If I flex my stomach, you can actually sort of see a 6-pack, so that's exciting. Meanwhile, everything else is not showing much improvement, except maybe my legs. My last shoot (the geisha/bedroom one with VisioLuxus) I had actually balooned up to 143 lbs., and my measurements were 39-27-40. Now they are 38-25-38., and I weigh 127. For those of you who are mad that I am trying to lose weight - don't worry, I still have quite a bit of flab and an hourglass shape.
I'm very impatient. Despite my relatively quick progess, I can't wait to lose more, and am somewhat frustrated that it isn't happening at the pace I would like. But, I'm exercising almost every day (I've only taken a couple of days off so far), I'm eating a very restrictive low-calorie-low-carb-high-protein diet, so I can't do much better than that. I guess I could do more aerobic stuff, but I have to walk my ass everywhere still so I think I'm doing ok. Plus, with my lack of carbs and calories, I probably would kill myself if I spent that much of my day exercising. Plus, I just don't want to spend that much of my day exercising. People like that turn into meatheads.
Ok, on to other topics. In my last post, I mentioned that I was going to do some topless modeling. Since all Jeremy and I have been doing is arguing about it, it's really not worth it to me. So, we reached a comprimise. Basically, I'm just going to keep doing what I've been doing, and if something topless comes along that I truly want to do AND pays decently, I'll do it. Once I seriously get into shape, I want to submit photos to Playboy (at least for the Special Editions, like the book of lingerie, etc. because they are more leanient with body types and stuff), and if by some small miracle I'm actually accepted, that might just be worth the arguing. He reluctantly agreed to that, but I think he thinks that there is no way I would ever get in. Don't get me wrong, he thinks I'm perfect, but perhaps that Playboy wouldn't. Wether I whip into shape or not, I'm still always going to be ghost white and have tattoos and stuff. We'll see what the future holds for me.
Anyhoo, that's all for now. I hope everyone is doing well!