Mo Cuishle
Have you ever felt like you really never belonged anywhere?
Like everything you've ever wanted you were afraid of so you grew somewhat angery and unattached?
Like no matter what happened no one truly saw you.... even if you had been screaming or thought you were scareming no one ever heard even a meek lil sound?
Pieces of me are different then what they should be.
Bitterness overpowers and soft and gental nature i use to act out. Lost within myself questioning why.... Never seeming to understand the simplness everyone all around seem to portray..
In search of answers and information that's more complex then your textbooks and lectures.
Looking for a reason and finding only out how lost i reallly am..
No longer dreading life itself or even really the complex nature of giving up.... But searching and never finding what that answer may truly be..
Interactions between nature and masks... hunmans and people.... simplicity turns only into a native laungage or complex code that seems to fly right over my head....
Relaxing in nature frigtens me. Finding out maybe simplicity IS beauty but yet really has God made anything simple.... So now truly who has beauty or does anything....Some may thing ones who look no further than mere appearance or faith as a small childs minds comprehention. And maybe they do see true beauty ... this is something i know not.
So now i ask is curiosity a curse, an act of nature or a blessing to intrege the mind.
No longer understanding or wanting to think due to the confusion and misconceptions i always seem to want to see.
As tears are blinked back and i hide once again in busy nonsense of hobbies or simply behind a door in a 9 by 9 shelter.... am i hinding from myself or from those who will never truly see.... and is this where i belong or am i so far away...
Missing the point i look further and still see nothing.. Sigh...
Looking only for a place the feels like home.. but trying not to run since that's all that i've ever done....
Thoughts after listening to my family be only themselves and watching million dollar baby.... yes it finished it even....
Who's Mo Cuishle to me? at least that's how i feel now.
Like everything you've ever wanted you were afraid of so you grew somewhat angery and unattached?
Like no matter what happened no one truly saw you.... even if you had been screaming or thought you were scareming no one ever heard even a meek lil sound?
Pieces of me are different then what they should be.
Bitterness overpowers and soft and gental nature i use to act out. Lost within myself questioning why.... Never seeming to understand the simplness everyone all around seem to portray..
In search of answers and information that's more complex then your textbooks and lectures.
Looking for a reason and finding only out how lost i reallly am..
No longer dreading life itself or even really the complex nature of giving up.... But searching and never finding what that answer may truly be..
Interactions between nature and masks... hunmans and people.... simplicity turns only into a native laungage or complex code that seems to fly right over my head....
Relaxing in nature frigtens me. Finding out maybe simplicity IS beauty but yet really has God made anything simple.... So now truly who has beauty or does anything....Some may thing ones who look no further than mere appearance or faith as a small childs minds comprehention. And maybe they do see true beauty ... this is something i know not.
So now i ask is curiosity a curse, an act of nature or a blessing to intrege the mind.
No longer understanding or wanting to think due to the confusion and misconceptions i always seem to want to see.
As tears are blinked back and i hide once again in busy nonsense of hobbies or simply behind a door in a 9 by 9 shelter.... am i hinding from myself or from those who will never truly see.... and is this where i belong or am i so far away...
Missing the point i look further and still see nothing.. Sigh...
Looking only for a place the feels like home.. but trying not to run since that's all that i've ever done....
Thoughts after listening to my family be only themselves and watching million dollar baby.... yes it finished it even....
Who's Mo Cuishle to me? at least that's how i feel now.