"Love Has Got To Be Free"
It's the new year. I don't use LJ much anymore, although I do miss it.
I got laid off my job last month, so I've just been working my dancing job, and getting unemployment. I feel kind of useless though. I would love a full-time job right now.
I've been seeing Joey for a few weeks now. We talked on Friday and decided that we are officially 'together'. I haven't been 'together' with someone in over two years, so it's kind of exciting for me. And stressful. It means I do have to sacrifice some things.
Last night Joey and I had sex for the first time. We've done other things in the past couple weeks, but not sex. I haven't had sex since Bobby, so it was sort of a big deal to me. I was ready though, and I am glad I did it. It was like losing my virginity all over again because it was so different. Joey was so careful. He's a very catering person, but still dominant. And I like that. I almost cried afterwards because I really didn't feel like I did with Bobby. It was so much more meaningful.
I'm kind of worried about my mom. Her and my stepdad split up the other day, and he moved out. My mom found out that he had been talking to other people and planning on moving away for a long time, but he told her only 2 days before he left. I know my mom is a strong person, but they were together for so long, it's hard to imagine what she is going to do now. I want her to just move up here, but I don't know if she can until my grandparents don't need her help anymore. I honestly don't think they'll be alive for much longer. They're both slowly dying. It's sad to watch it happen, but sometimes I think it would be easier on everyone if they just passed on. No one would have to worry or be miserable anymore.
But...I guess misery is a part of life.
I'm excited to watch Romeo & Juliet tonight.
I think I'll go clean house now.
I got laid off my job last month, so I've just been working my dancing job, and getting unemployment. I feel kind of useless though. I would love a full-time job right now.
I've been seeing Joey for a few weeks now. We talked on Friday and decided that we are officially 'together'. I haven't been 'together' with someone in over two years, so it's kind of exciting for me. And stressful. It means I do have to sacrifice some things.
Last night Joey and I had sex for the first time. We've done other things in the past couple weeks, but not sex. I haven't had sex since Bobby, so it was sort of a big deal to me. I was ready though, and I am glad I did it. It was like losing my virginity all over again because it was so different. Joey was so careful. He's a very catering person, but still dominant. And I like that. I almost cried afterwards because I really didn't feel like I did with Bobby. It was so much more meaningful.
I'm kind of worried about my mom. Her and my stepdad split up the other day, and he moved out. My mom found out that he had been talking to other people and planning on moving away for a long time, but he told her only 2 days before he left. I know my mom is a strong person, but they were together for so long, it's hard to imagine what she is going to do now. I want her to just move up here, but I don't know if she can until my grandparents don't need her help anymore. I honestly don't think they'll be alive for much longer. They're both slowly dying. It's sad to watch it happen, but sometimes I think it would be easier on everyone if they just passed on. No one would have to worry or be miserable anymore.
But...I guess misery is a part of life.
I'm excited to watch Romeo & Juliet tonight.
I think I'll go clean house now.