'Cause today will soon be,
Gone...
Like yesterday is gone...
Like history is gone...
Just try and prove me wrong,
And pretend like you're immortal.
Well, vacationing was a much-needed, um... 'VACATION!!!' *waves arms in the air* It is so refreshing to get away for awhile and NOT WORRY. I loved almost every minute of it! Beast!
I do not have time to paragraph everything that went on, so if you know what I'm talking about, kudos to you for being my friend/caring. If not, then use your ~Imagination~!
+Adam at VBS. Playing spoons, cake, Krumbs with the silent Z. 'When my brother drugs...', Grease, The spider, What's up there?
+Brooke and the whispering, flirting and vacuuming.
+Shopping!!! I have a new style! (mostly borrowed, lol!)
+School shopping for almost the last time!!
-Not seeing Mike. :(
+Blueberry Festival, International Falls, etc.
+Relaxing and catching up with college applications.
-needing a job
+Fire!!!
+Watching FullMetal Alchemist!!! My new favorite (and only) anime that isn't tainted with memories...
+Skinny-dipping!
+Driving home with Emy, and no secret agent-ness.
-Driving home alone/missing a turn
+seeing deer and bald eagles up close.
-Not practicing much...
+++Going to Jacki's party to have a blast, meeting the love of my life, playing peanut tetres, fake-drinking fake-wine to get fake-drunk, nearly drowning, singing in the sauna, lobsters, watching TV in the excercise room, playing in the playscape, watching Jacki getting hit on by stoned men, and being saved by Matt. <3!!!
Elaborating on Matt, the love of my life. He is a skateboarding, sack-sewing, bass-playing hottie!!! Unfortunately, he's jailbait. Why am I so attracted to the younger men? He tried to fight me/drown me, but deep down, he loves me, too! I hope I can find his Myspace, and ask him to Homecoming! *squee!*
+++Robbing Jacki of over 100 CD's to increase my collection!
-Having Queen, Greatest hits of '75 and Jesse's Girl missing.
+Finding Bon Jovi!
+getting Something Corporate back!!!
+Visiting Julian and Sarah.
+Watching the ever-building fight of ninja/pirate vs. Ghetto White Boy! (Jules always wins!)
-Getting yelled at for 'not telling us where you were going, not being where you said you'd be, lying to dad about mom, lying about sleeping over at the hotel, etc.'
+Getting time to update and just sit and think. Or not.
-No one comments anymore. :(
Beast. Marching band tomorrow. I wanted to go swimming with Jenn. And I've done a marvelous job of forgetting you-know-who until now. (at least I think so. Jacki disagrees.) I'm tired of apologising. If that means we can't be friends, I guess that's it. But I apologised for everything I shouldn't have done, and I shall not repeat apologising, nor shall I apologise for crimes I did not commit. I'm sad, but I will not crawl back in crap to be taken back onto that roller-coaster. I will always love him, but I need someone who loves me back.
Done complaining, but this is my new favorite depressing song. It's very accurate.
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
Like yesterday is gone...
Like history is gone...
Just try and prove me wrong,
And pretend like you're immortal.
Well, vacationing was a much-needed, um... 'VACATION!!!' *waves arms in the air* It is so refreshing to get away for awhile and NOT WORRY. I loved almost every minute of it! Beast!
I do not have time to paragraph everything that went on, so if you know what I'm talking about, kudos to you for being my friend/caring. If not, then use your ~Imagination~!
+Adam at VBS. Playing spoons, cake, Krumbs with the silent Z. 'When my brother drugs...', Grease, The spider, What's up there?
+Brooke and the whispering, flirting and vacuuming.
+Shopping!!! I have a new style! (mostly borrowed, lol!)
+School shopping for almost the last time!!
-Not seeing Mike. :(
+Blueberry Festival, International Falls, etc.
+Relaxing and catching up with college applications.
-needing a job
+Fire!!!
+Watching FullMetal Alchemist!!! My new favorite (and only) anime that isn't tainted with memories...
+Skinny-dipping!
+Driving home with Emy, and no secret agent-ness.
-Driving home alone/missing a turn
+seeing deer and bald eagles up close.
-Not practicing much...
+++Going to Jacki's party to have a blast, meeting the love of my life, playing peanut tetres, fake-drinking fake-wine to get fake-drunk, nearly drowning, singing in the sauna, lobsters, watching TV in the excercise room, playing in the playscape, watching Jacki getting hit on by stoned men, and being saved by Matt. <3!!!
Elaborating on Matt, the love of my life. He is a skateboarding, sack-sewing, bass-playing hottie!!! Unfortunately, he's jailbait. Why am I so attracted to the younger men? He tried to fight me/drown me, but deep down, he loves me, too! I hope I can find his Myspace, and ask him to Homecoming! *squee!*
+++Robbing Jacki of over 100 CD's to increase my collection!
-Having Queen, Greatest hits of '75 and Jesse's Girl missing.
+Finding Bon Jovi!
+getting Something Corporate back!!!
+Visiting Julian and Sarah.
+Watching the ever-building fight of ninja/pirate vs. Ghetto White Boy! (Jules always wins!)
-Getting yelled at for 'not telling us where you were going, not being where you said you'd be, lying to dad about mom, lying about sleeping over at the hotel, etc.'
+Getting time to update and just sit and think. Or not.
-No one comments anymore. :(
Beast. Marching band tomorrow. I wanted to go swimming with Jenn. And I've done a marvelous job of forgetting you-know-who until now. (at least I think so. Jacki disagrees.) I'm tired of apologising. If that means we can't be friends, I guess that's it. But I apologised for everything I shouldn't have done, and I shall not repeat apologising, nor shall I apologise for crimes I did not commit. I'm sad, but I will not crawl back in crap to be taken back onto that roller-coaster. I will always love him, but I need someone who loves me back.
Done complaining, but this is my new favorite depressing song. It's very accurate.
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you