it's been a long time comming
live life and love what you live right? until that world that you lived in so comfortably is turned up side down and you find your self wondering where it all went wrong. i in my heart of hearts know that it wasn't for lack of love that my relationship went sour. it was all the issues of his that i couldn't help him get over. insert professional help here. even through the break up he doesn't see that i am the one that is hurting. all of the coments and the terrably mean things that i still let him say to me do no justice to the colussal tragidy that was dennis and jacob. all i want is a clean break but i get to comfort in that even. on a daily basis i have to deal with him calling and yelling and telling me how much of a user i am and how i will never amout to anything. any one who really knows me know that above all thigs i am a survivor. that this to shall pass and that i am a wonderful caring a loving person. it is just hard to pracitce when for a year and a half you have been told otherwise. you live and learn right. enter cliche here.