Graduation, Becoming Seniors, and Summer Break!
I have just recently thought about this since graduation is coming up and then I will be the next to graduate. It is so crazy to think about how fast these past 4 years of highschool have came and went so fast. I mean don't get me wrong I love how it is going fast I want to get to my life. My real life where I go adventure out into the "Real World" find a job, get married, and start a family. In all honesty, as it is getting closer I think I'm getting more scared. Just thinking that I'll be graduating this time next year. Another chapter in my life is closed, and a new beginning is about ready to start. I will finally get out of the closed minded place I call home and adventure out to new places and see new things, meet new people and start losing touch with people back at home. I don't want to do that. I don't want lose touch with everyone. I have started to see the affects of people changing more and more each day. People I used to be best friends with I'm not really that close with anymore. I mean they are still friends of mine but I don't run to them when something is wrong or just talk to them to vent or what not. I have really seen a relationship of mine take a turn for the worst and it sucks. We don't even talk anymore or acknowledge eachother being there. It makes me really upset considering how I could talk to them about anything and they also helped me through somethings and made me see who I really want to be as a person and to also become a stronger person. I miss them. But I don't know how to tell them that. I don't know how to tell them I miss our friendship and I don't know what really happened to make us stop being friends. I don't know anymore. I find it hard to even try when it doesn't seem like that other person even cares about having a friendship at all. Who knows. I'm tired just tired of everything.... All well I think I need summer break. Time to get away from the stresses of school and people. Time that I'll have to concentrate on me and just having a good time and traveling and going to Florida. I so can't wait. We're leaving June 10 and coming back the 17th. I really can't wait. I can't wait to walk on the beach and see awesome sunsets, have the sand between my toes, relax by the pool, lay out, and not having a care in the world, about what I look like what I have on or what not. It will also be awesome to be sitting in Florida calling friends seeing what they are up to while I'm in Florida on the beach talking to them. Aww.... This is making me want these next 4 weeks to go by fast. I keep thinking about this. I go 3 more weeks of school, then I get out on Friday June 3rd, then a week from that Friday I'll be in Florida laying on the beach enjoying the sun and hanging out with my parents, sister and Maegan. Man... I can't wait.