Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
Lets start off with Jim because I know many of you've had questions.
We broke up awhile ago. Why? Various, and several reasons; I cant continue to be the soul emotional stablizer and supporter, and two, I cant continue to be failed with broken promises that he never meant to keep. Am I happy? Yes. Yes I am. I received an e-mail from him lastnight. Here it is-
I'm sorry to bother you, but I really need to tell someone what is happening right now. Yeah, I'm a little bit bitchy. Tuesday night Richie and I were at the mall, we heard a girl screaming and looked over and saw this couple arguing. The guy reached out and hit this chick then grabbed her by the hair and started to drag her to a car. So, being a colossal dumbass, I decided to do something about it. I went over and told the dude to knock it off. He shoved me and told me to fuck off. The next thing I know, 4 other guys get out of the car and come at us. I got hit with a baseball bat several times, I have a broken arm (minor fracture) three broken ribs and assorted other boo boos. We proceeded to beat the shit out of the dudes and called the cops. The police show up, arrest and hospitalize the 5 guys...no big deal, right?...wrong!!! Today I was charged with felony battery...and to top it off, they arrested me at work, so now I am out of a job, again...yipee...my cat died sunday, I am now facing felony charges for trying to do the right thing, and the one person I want to talk to doesn't just push me away, she beats me away. So I am a little bit in a bad mood. I know I have no one to blame for all of this but myself, if I hadn't have failed you repeatedly I might actually have someone to reach out to right now. I guess I just need to shut the fuck up, fuck off and deal with my own shit. Life alone sucks ass...enjoy what and who you have Anna, because when you have no one, it sucks ass big-time...I won't bother you again, you have far more important and meaningful shit to do then waste time on me. I am sorry I failed you my beloved, and I am even more sorry I couldn't be the man you deserve. I will always love you...Jim
I...dont care? That about sums it up.
Stalkers are super fun.
So my friend Kimmie introduced me to this guy named Patrick. Patrick instantly became jealous of my sisterly relationship with Kim, and started to harass her, then me. It got taken to an entirely new level when he blew up my phone with over 27 calls- dispite the fact I didnt answer. Then hacked her PC, tried to fuck with mine, and the final big bang of it all came when he attempted suicide infront of me, blaming me for the falling out he had with Kim after all the harassing he did to her and myself. Totally freaked out. I mean, total mental melt down from me at this point. Harassment+Gilt Trip+Attempt Suicide= way too much fucked up shit for me to handle.
Needless to say, I had to turn over my phone, call logs, and get a restraining order. I didnt leave the house for two days- sick, and scared. Im still not sleeping.
Intrepid
Its doing well. Im very excited for it to open. However lately I've felt abandoned by a few people and Im just..tired. Im tired of being treated like shit. So for anyone that feels I make a great punching bag whenever you feel like it? You can fuck off. Dont talk to me, dont contact me, dont even ask anyone else on your behalf. I wont be abused by your filthy, hurtful words anymore. Im not a dog, or a walk in mat you can wipe your feet on. Excuse me for growing a spine.
For those of you that've been there for me? I love you dearly.
Zane.
Swoonjumpsquealforjoy! And then...bash over the head and cry. Im happy with him. Im lonely and incredibly unhappy without him. Im fiercly jealous of other females he fancies. I dont like that. I dont like being jealous. It shows my insecurities. I dont like feeling vulnerable. Im afraid he'll break me. Im afraid I'll break him. I would rather try though, than run away, screaming for dear sanity in fear of what could happen that would make it all fall appart. I wrote him an e-mail the other day. It was pretty serious. Wonder how he felt/took it. Hmmm. He brings out the best in me. And I smile everytime he calls me baby. Im an idiot. If there was ever anything I fought tooth and nail for? It'll be him.
I hope he wants me as much as I want him. Zane. You set my soul Alight
Im silly.
We broke up awhile ago. Why? Various, and several reasons; I cant continue to be the soul emotional stablizer and supporter, and two, I cant continue to be failed with broken promises that he never meant to keep. Am I happy? Yes. Yes I am. I received an e-mail from him lastnight. Here it is-
I'm sorry to bother you, but I really need to tell someone what is happening right now. Yeah, I'm a little bit bitchy. Tuesday night Richie and I were at the mall, we heard a girl screaming and looked over and saw this couple arguing. The guy reached out and hit this chick then grabbed her by the hair and started to drag her to a car. So, being a colossal dumbass, I decided to do something about it. I went over and told the dude to knock it off. He shoved me and told me to fuck off. The next thing I know, 4 other guys get out of the car and come at us. I got hit with a baseball bat several times, I have a broken arm (minor fracture) three broken ribs and assorted other boo boos. We proceeded to beat the shit out of the dudes and called the cops. The police show up, arrest and hospitalize the 5 guys...no big deal, right?...wrong!!! Today I was charged with felony battery...and to top it off, they arrested me at work, so now I am out of a job, again...yipee...my cat died sunday, I am now facing felony charges for trying to do the right thing, and the one person I want to talk to doesn't just push me away, she beats me away. So I am a little bit in a bad mood. I know I have no one to blame for all of this but myself, if I hadn't have failed you repeatedly I might actually have someone to reach out to right now. I guess I just need to shut the fuck up, fuck off and deal with my own shit. Life alone sucks ass...enjoy what and who you have Anna, because when you have no one, it sucks ass big-time...I won't bother you again, you have far more important and meaningful shit to do then waste time on me. I am sorry I failed you my beloved, and I am even more sorry I couldn't be the man you deserve. I will always love you...Jim
I...dont care? That about sums it up.
Stalkers are super fun.
So my friend Kimmie introduced me to this guy named Patrick. Patrick instantly became jealous of my sisterly relationship with Kim, and started to harass her, then me. It got taken to an entirely new level when he blew up my phone with over 27 calls- dispite the fact I didnt answer. Then hacked her PC, tried to fuck with mine, and the final big bang of it all came when he attempted suicide infront of me, blaming me for the falling out he had with Kim after all the harassing he did to her and myself. Totally freaked out. I mean, total mental melt down from me at this point. Harassment+Gilt Trip+Attempt Suicide= way too much fucked up shit for me to handle.
Needless to say, I had to turn over my phone, call logs, and get a restraining order. I didnt leave the house for two days- sick, and scared. Im still not sleeping.
Intrepid
Its doing well. Im very excited for it to open. However lately I've felt abandoned by a few people and Im just..tired. Im tired of being treated like shit. So for anyone that feels I make a great punching bag whenever you feel like it? You can fuck off. Dont talk to me, dont contact me, dont even ask anyone else on your behalf. I wont be abused by your filthy, hurtful words anymore. Im not a dog, or a walk in mat you can wipe your feet on. Excuse me for growing a spine.
For those of you that've been there for me? I love you dearly.
Zane.
Swoonjumpsquealforjoy! And then...bash over the head and cry. Im happy with him. Im lonely and incredibly unhappy without him. Im fiercly jealous of other females he fancies. I dont like that. I dont like being jealous. It shows my insecurities. I dont like feeling vulnerable. Im afraid he'll break me. Im afraid I'll break him. I would rather try though, than run away, screaming for dear sanity in fear of what could happen that would make it all fall appart. I wrote him an e-mail the other day. It was pretty serious. Wonder how he felt/took it. Hmmm. He brings out the best in me. And I smile everytime he calls me baby. Im an idiot. If there was ever anything I fought tooth and nail for? It'll be him.
I hope he wants me as much as I want him. Zane. You set my soul Alight
Im silly.