Back Again.
So I have really been missing LJ so here I am Back again. Allot has happened since I updated my life last with allot of you. Some of you added me to your myspace but unfortunately I don't post a whole lot there...LOL. I guess I feel better about posting on LJ.
Okay...where to start.........
Well, I'm back in Kansas City if any of you didn't know that already. I am now working for a company called CLO. I work in a group home taking care of and helping mentally handicapped and disabled adults. It's fun and very active work that has been keeping me on my toes. These people are amazing!!! I think I am learning more from them about life than they are from me. LOL!
Four months, and about 2 weeks ago I met a wonderfull man (well technically...He's only 21). His name is Vincent. It of course started as a one night stand and as it happened...he never went away. Our entire relationship we have only spent a total of about 5 days away from eachother...wich surprisingly is too much time away for both of us. I guess we just fit. We have recently gone through and are still going through a rough patch in our lives together and seperately. I wound up in the hospitol about 2 weeks ago with a testical swollen about the size of a baseball. As it turned out... there was a time that Vincent wasn't faithfull and wound up bringing Chlamydia home. I of course broke up with him. But only shortly. Some of you may find me a week person for not sticking to it...but the fact is that I love him. And people make mistakes. Goddess knows I have made enough of them. Anyway we made it through that with very little drama.
Now here is where unfortunately my news takes a turn... This last weekend was the Gay PRIDE Festival. Wich of course Vince and I attended. The Festival itself wasn't so bad and we enjoyed Friday and Saturday to the fullest but Sunday was much different. We decided that we would spend our time at the Festival on Sunday looking at the booths and stuff. Well...."deep Breath" ... Vincent and I decided to get rapid tested while we were there and both of us tested HIV Possitive. I want to take this moment to appologize to everyone that I have not told in person. In a way it is easier for me to type it and bare it all here than to call everyone individually. I'm sorry. I know it's hard to find something like this out about somebody that you love this way. But honestly this way is easier for me.
I want everybody to know that I am okay. I am having my moments. At times I am fine. But there are still times that I start crying and think it's the end of my world. In truth it's not. I'm choosing to view this as if I have been reborn. And this time around, things are going to be much different for me. The way I look at it. I've got two choices. I can choose to be upset and angry or I can choose to make changes in my life to make sure that I live it to it's fullest so that I can die knowing I did everything that I wanted, my way. Although most of the time I am staying possitive, I am greiving, I am dealing with it. It's hard knowing that I have it, and even harder knowing that the man i love more than anything has it as well. He's only 21 ... he shouldn't have to deal with something like this.
Nothing has changed between the two of us. On the 19th of May we decided that we wanted to have a cerimony and bought eachother rings. We are still planning on going through with it. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone. And I believe he feels the same for me. We are going through allot lately but I'm sure we will make it through. If anything, it has thrust us closer together. And I'm so thankfull that we have eachother to make it through this.
So heres to my new life...
I'm happy to be back on LJ.
Love You Guy's,
Leylie:)
Okay...where to start.........
Well, I'm back in Kansas City if any of you didn't know that already. I am now working for a company called CLO. I work in a group home taking care of and helping mentally handicapped and disabled adults. It's fun and very active work that has been keeping me on my toes. These people are amazing!!! I think I am learning more from them about life than they are from me. LOL!
Four months, and about 2 weeks ago I met a wonderfull man (well technically...He's only 21). His name is Vincent. It of course started as a one night stand and as it happened...he never went away. Our entire relationship we have only spent a total of about 5 days away from eachother...wich surprisingly is too much time away for both of us. I guess we just fit. We have recently gone through and are still going through a rough patch in our lives together and seperately. I wound up in the hospitol about 2 weeks ago with a testical swollen about the size of a baseball. As it turned out... there was a time that Vincent wasn't faithfull and wound up bringing Chlamydia home. I of course broke up with him. But only shortly. Some of you may find me a week person for not sticking to it...but the fact is that I love him. And people make mistakes. Goddess knows I have made enough of them. Anyway we made it through that with very little drama.
Now here is where unfortunately my news takes a turn... This last weekend was the Gay PRIDE Festival. Wich of course Vince and I attended. The Festival itself wasn't so bad and we enjoyed Friday and Saturday to the fullest but Sunday was much different. We decided that we would spend our time at the Festival on Sunday looking at the booths and stuff. Well...."deep Breath" ... Vincent and I decided to get rapid tested while we were there and both of us tested HIV Possitive. I want to take this moment to appologize to everyone that I have not told in person. In a way it is easier for me to type it and bare it all here than to call everyone individually. I'm sorry. I know it's hard to find something like this out about somebody that you love this way. But honestly this way is easier for me.
I want everybody to know that I am okay. I am having my moments. At times I am fine. But there are still times that I start crying and think it's the end of my world. In truth it's not. I'm choosing to view this as if I have been reborn. And this time around, things are going to be much different for me. The way I look at it. I've got two choices. I can choose to be upset and angry or I can choose to make changes in my life to make sure that I live it to it's fullest so that I can die knowing I did everything that I wanted, my way. Although most of the time I am staying possitive, I am greiving, I am dealing with it. It's hard knowing that I have it, and even harder knowing that the man i love more than anything has it as well. He's only 21 ... he shouldn't have to deal with something like this.
Nothing has changed between the two of us. On the 19th of May we decided that we wanted to have a cerimony and bought eachother rings. We are still planning on going through with it. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone. And I believe he feels the same for me. We are going through allot lately but I'm sure we will make it through. If anything, it has thrust us closer together. And I'm so thankfull that we have eachother to make it through this.
So heres to my new life...
I'm happy to be back on LJ.
Love You Guy's,
Leylie:)