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This is from something I wrote earlier today. Thought it was good enough to put here:
"So what do I make of the Condition Green experience? At first, I thought we sucked. Who were we kidding? But as time progresses I see it less and less as a disaster. I essentially took 3 people who had an interest in music, but no motivation to do anything about it, and molded them for my purposes. Jordan was on board from beginning, as evidenced by his many contributions and compositions/song writing. I was too inexperienced then to take the task on alone. He helped me out where I fell short. He helped Biz where there was opportunity for growth. He helped Justin in his infantile stage of musical development get to where he needed to go. So much that he is solely responsible for Justin's sound. In such a short period of time, Justin got great at percussion, wrote lyrics to a song he was to perform the very next day, composed a lot of his own music, rocked a crowd without anybody telling him to do so, and stepped up big every time we needed him to. I can never thank these guys enough for bailing me out of that awful situation.
Sure, I was the driving force which brought us all together, but these guys were the talent. It took me 2 years to get where I was. It took Justin and Bizmark a matter of months to get where they were. All I had was motivation and an iron will. I may have seemed pushy, but I felt that I needed to be. Maybe too much. Justin's invested his whole life in music, spending all of his cash and time on music. Biz burned out. Any interest Julius had in music has thoroughly dissapted. Jordan's tired of my lack of skill, Justin's never-ending procrastination, and a noticable absence of drums. I still want to do it. I'm still getting better. I can hear it in the way I play. Still lacking technique and a general understanding of scales, but I'm getting there. I know Jord wants me to get better too. A few days back he gave me a bullshit reason for giving me guitar lessons and I willingly obliged. Fuck yes I want to get better. Fuck yes I'll learn from someone I look up to musically. Especially someone who actually knows music can explain it in a way I understand.
Every time we get together we listen to CG. It's rough, it's crude, but it had something to it. It was far from perfect. But at least it was good. At least it was music. For not knowing what we were doing we sounded fantastic. And with every passing day I hear something I missed before. And the sound gets fuller. Better. It's not that musical trainwreck I used to think of as a failure anymore. It's more than that now. It's a great memory. And at least I can say "You know what? I tried guys. I really did."
"So what do I make of the Condition Green experience? At first, I thought we sucked. Who were we kidding? But as time progresses I see it less and less as a disaster. I essentially took 3 people who had an interest in music, but no motivation to do anything about it, and molded them for my purposes. Jordan was on board from beginning, as evidenced by his many contributions and compositions/song writing. I was too inexperienced then to take the task on alone. He helped me out where I fell short. He helped Biz where there was opportunity for growth. He helped Justin in his infantile stage of musical development get to where he needed to go. So much that he is solely responsible for Justin's sound. In such a short period of time, Justin got great at percussion, wrote lyrics to a song he was to perform the very next day, composed a lot of his own music, rocked a crowd without anybody telling him to do so, and stepped up big every time we needed him to. I can never thank these guys enough for bailing me out of that awful situation.
Sure, I was the driving force which brought us all together, but these guys were the talent. It took me 2 years to get where I was. It took Justin and Bizmark a matter of months to get where they were. All I had was motivation and an iron will. I may have seemed pushy, but I felt that I needed to be. Maybe too much. Justin's invested his whole life in music, spending all of his cash and time on music. Biz burned out. Any interest Julius had in music has thoroughly dissapted. Jordan's tired of my lack of skill, Justin's never-ending procrastination, and a noticable absence of drums. I still want to do it. I'm still getting better. I can hear it in the way I play. Still lacking technique and a general understanding of scales, but I'm getting there. I know Jord wants me to get better too. A few days back he gave me a bullshit reason for giving me guitar lessons and I willingly obliged. Fuck yes I want to get better. Fuck yes I'll learn from someone I look up to musically. Especially someone who actually knows music can explain it in a way I understand.
Every time we get together we listen to CG. It's rough, it's crude, but it had something to it. It was far from perfect. But at least it was good. At least it was music. For not knowing what we were doing we sounded fantastic. And with every passing day I hear something I missed before. And the sound gets fuller. Better. It's not that musical trainwreck I used to think of as a failure anymore. It's more than that now. It's a great memory. And at least I can say "You know what? I tried guys. I really did."