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I hate how I sound on this journal.
All negative, childish bullshit. I guess I just complain here because I try not to tell anyone about it. But, the truth of the matter is, I don't like how things turned out. I know it's my fault. Should've been a lot of things I wasn't. I hope I can still make something of myself in my lifetime though. I take responsibility for my faults. I know that's not enough. Trying to do it all on my own which is proving to be a much harder task than I could've ever anticipated. I don't like to admit it, especially to myself but, I guess I'll have to take help every now and then.
I've lived for a lot of people. Most of my friends don't see that because I escape all of that junk when I'm around them. That's my escape. If my friends suck, I have no escape. That's all it is.
I'm still not where I want to be and it really does have me down. Still trying to stick it out though. Hopefully, I can use that last bit of luck on making some progress.
This sucks.
All negative, childish bullshit. I guess I just complain here because I try not to tell anyone about it. But, the truth of the matter is, I don't like how things turned out. I know it's my fault. Should've been a lot of things I wasn't. I hope I can still make something of myself in my lifetime though. I take responsibility for my faults. I know that's not enough. Trying to do it all on my own which is proving to be a much harder task than I could've ever anticipated. I don't like to admit it, especially to myself but, I guess I'll have to take help every now and then.
I've lived for a lot of people. Most of my friends don't see that because I escape all of that junk when I'm around them. That's my escape. If my friends suck, I have no escape. That's all it is.
I'm still not where I want to be and it really does have me down. Still trying to stick it out though. Hopefully, I can use that last bit of luck on making some progress.
This sucks.