selling myself short never felt so good
I think I'm the only person above the age of 13 that really really likes my chemical romance. oh, well everyone has a guilty pleasure. Alex chivedavitch admitted to likeing pop punk. lets all think about that.
I've been so frieaken out of it today... Somethings really bothering me... like really really bothering me and I'm not quite sure what it is. Whatever it is it's driving me crazy. ugh whatever
Today was rather mellow. feeling shitty and being far to tired was the combination that kept me away from work today. eh oh well. I'm going tomorrow. so whatever. I want to start working saterdays insted of sundays. I get so frieaken bored. I'm not quite sure how saterday would be different then sunday, but it would propably be fun for a while.
I cannot wait to get my frieaken hair cut. I waited far to long and I'm really sick of all my dead frieaken hair. That and my layers are grown out and it looks kinda funny if I don't straghten&blow dry in a specific way. Tuesday cannot come soon enough.
I've been writing a lot more then usual lately. I'm not really sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Usually the more I write the more depressed I am but I don't know... it's kinda fun. If I wasn't such a fuck up and I didn't fail at everything I would want to go to college to be a writer. It's never going to happen, and I don't need people telling me it will O.K. Mr. Haubrook. Besides. I'm amazing at hair and makeup any way.
Truth be told that's the only thing that Mr.H and I don't agree on, so please don't think that I don't like him because him and Mr. Banghart are my favorite teachers. I'm painting the bottom half of his room Raider blue.
I'm putting all my pictures on photo bucket right now. It's taking forever. I hate all the pictures I have of tara. They make me both miss her and hate her even more then I do already. I wish I could have one solid opnion on her, like I wish I either hated her or miss her. not both, both is confusing and tireing. To be honest I think that once I don't have to see her every frieaken day at lunch (thanks megan) I wont exactly forget about her, but I'll forget how much I miss her and everything will turn to hatered. Or at least that's what I'm hoping for.
Maria called me today and asked me ro do her hair for prom for $20.00 pssssshhh not only did I say yes, but she doesn't have to pay me, and we'll (me and my aunt) do her make up too... I LIVE for this kind of stuff. I wish Megan could come to prom. That would make my frieaken life. :sigh: whatever at least Rhiannon will be their... and for the fucking record I'm like the only person in the world who DOES NOT hate Rhiannon... so please stop asking me... k thanks.
another thing that needs to be cleared up... when you ask me who I was hanging out with and I say JJ (if he was with Matt) shut your fucking mouths. I don't ever recall asking your opnions on him so shut the fuck up. It really bothers how you all think I give a shit about what you think. If you don't like him... why don't you tell him... oh that's right.... you're all afraid. so shut up.
Megan asked who David Beckham was yesterday... making me quite the hot little tamale. I frieaken love Megan.
Also people who don't like how jealous and irrational Matt gets sometimes... It's OK if you don't like him (trust me) but if you had any respect at all for me you'd shut your fucking mouths, at least for when I'm around... and I don't want to hear about how you sit around and talk about him either. We're still together and I like him better then you so GET OVER IT.
My obscession with Tim Armstrong is at an all time high. Just thought you'd all like to know.
I can't frieaken wait to see AFI with big nick the day after we graduate, then again with Megan at warped tour with megan. frieaken AWESOME.
Speaking of graduation is anyone else really fucking mad at Thom and Dello for failing anything and not being able to walk?? Really how fucking stupid can you get.
I'm really frieaken tired. Everything frieaken sucks right now. I hate everything.
Northern Star
And I cry and no one can hear
Inhale the blinded eyes that see
The chaos bring the pitiful to me
Even though I'm wide awake
I will in blackest night
And I wait for you
It's cold in here, there's no one left
And I wait for you
And nothing stops it happening
And I knew I'd cherish all my misery alone
And I wait staring at the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead me anywhere
He's so cold he will ruin the world tonight
All the angels kneel into the northern lights
Kneel into the frozen lights
And they paid, I cry and cry for you
Ghosts that haunt you with their sorrow
I cried 'cause you were doomed
Praying to the wound that swallows all that's cold and cruel
Can you see the trees, charity and gratitude?
They run to the pines
It's black in here, blot out the sun and run to the pines
Our misery runs wild and free
And I knew the fire and the ashes of his grace
And I wait staring at the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead you very far
He's so cold he will win the world tonight
All the angels kneel into the frozen lights
Feel their hearts, they're cold and white
And I want you
And blessed are the broken
And I beg you
No loneliness, no misery is worth you
Oh, tear his heart out
Cold as ice, it's mine
And I wait praying to the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere
He's so cold raining on the world tonight
All the angels kneeling to the northern lights
And I pray begging to the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere
He's so cold he will rule the world tonight
All the angels kneeling to the northern lights
Kneeling to the frozen lights
Feel their hearts, they're cold as ice
I've been so frieaken out of it today... Somethings really bothering me... like really really bothering me and I'm not quite sure what it is. Whatever it is it's driving me crazy. ugh whatever
Today was rather mellow. feeling shitty and being far to tired was the combination that kept me away from work today. eh oh well. I'm going tomorrow. so whatever. I want to start working saterdays insted of sundays. I get so frieaken bored. I'm not quite sure how saterday would be different then sunday, but it would propably be fun for a while.
I cannot wait to get my frieaken hair cut. I waited far to long and I'm really sick of all my dead frieaken hair. That and my layers are grown out and it looks kinda funny if I don't straghten&blow dry in a specific way. Tuesday cannot come soon enough.
I've been writing a lot more then usual lately. I'm not really sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Usually the more I write the more depressed I am but I don't know... it's kinda fun. If I wasn't such a fuck up and I didn't fail at everything I would want to go to college to be a writer. It's never going to happen, and I don't need people telling me it will O.K. Mr. Haubrook. Besides. I'm amazing at hair and makeup any way.
Truth be told that's the only thing that Mr.H and I don't agree on, so please don't think that I don't like him because him and Mr. Banghart are my favorite teachers. I'm painting the bottom half of his room Raider blue.
I'm putting all my pictures on photo bucket right now. It's taking forever. I hate all the pictures I have of tara. They make me both miss her and hate her even more then I do already. I wish I could have one solid opnion on her, like I wish I either hated her or miss her. not both, both is confusing and tireing. To be honest I think that once I don't have to see her every frieaken day at lunch (thanks megan) I wont exactly forget about her, but I'll forget how much I miss her and everything will turn to hatered. Or at least that's what I'm hoping for.
Maria called me today and asked me ro do her hair for prom for $20.00 pssssshhh not only did I say yes, but she doesn't have to pay me, and we'll (me and my aunt) do her make up too... I LIVE for this kind of stuff. I wish Megan could come to prom. That would make my frieaken life. :sigh: whatever at least Rhiannon will be their... and for the fucking record I'm like the only person in the world who DOES NOT hate Rhiannon... so please stop asking me... k thanks.
another thing that needs to be cleared up... when you ask me who I was hanging out with and I say JJ (if he was with Matt) shut your fucking mouths. I don't ever recall asking your opnions on him so shut the fuck up. It really bothers how you all think I give a shit about what you think. If you don't like him... why don't you tell him... oh that's right.... you're all afraid. so shut up.
Megan asked who David Beckham was yesterday... making me quite the hot little tamale. I frieaken love Megan.
Also people who don't like how jealous and irrational Matt gets sometimes... It's OK if you don't like him (trust me) but if you had any respect at all for me you'd shut your fucking mouths, at least for when I'm around... and I don't want to hear about how you sit around and talk about him either. We're still together and I like him better then you so GET OVER IT.
My obscession with Tim Armstrong is at an all time high. Just thought you'd all like to know.
I can't frieaken wait to see AFI with big nick the day after we graduate, then again with Megan at warped tour with megan. frieaken AWESOME.
Speaking of graduation is anyone else really fucking mad at Thom and Dello for failing anything and not being able to walk?? Really how fucking stupid can you get.
I'm really frieaken tired. Everything frieaken sucks right now. I hate everything.
Northern Star
And I cry and no one can hear
Inhale the blinded eyes that see
The chaos bring the pitiful to me
Even though I'm wide awake
I will in blackest night
And I wait for you
It's cold in here, there's no one left
And I wait for you
And nothing stops it happening
And I knew I'd cherish all my misery alone
And I wait staring at the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead me anywhere
He's so cold he will ruin the world tonight
All the angels kneel into the northern lights
Kneel into the frozen lights
And they paid, I cry and cry for you
Ghosts that haunt you with their sorrow
I cried 'cause you were doomed
Praying to the wound that swallows all that's cold and cruel
Can you see the trees, charity and gratitude?
They run to the pines
It's black in here, blot out the sun and run to the pines
Our misery runs wild and free
And I knew the fire and the ashes of his grace
And I wait staring at the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead you very far
He's so cold he will win the world tonight
All the angels kneel into the frozen lights
Feel their hearts, they're cold and white
And I want you
And blessed are the broken
And I beg you
No loneliness, no misery is worth you
Oh, tear his heart out
Cold as ice, it's mine
And I wait praying to the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere
He's so cold raining on the world tonight
All the angels kneeling to the northern lights
And I pray begging to the northern star
I'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere
He's so cold he will rule the world tonight
All the angels kneeling to the northern lights
Kneeling to the frozen lights
Feel their hearts, they're cold as ice