43 cats were trained for this lj entry . . .
Well it's 2005 and we're only 4 days into the new year and so far i have managed to spend a stupid amount on going to the met lounge only to discover it's closing at midnight, turned up a day early for work ( " Louise, don't you know your still on holiday?" If i had known that i wouldn't have gotten up at 6.30 this morning!)Oh and i have also managed to split my lip. (Replace "i" with "we," I won't be held entirely responsible!!) It just goes to show that although it is a new year the everyday stuff does not change, and for once i don't want it to.
Over the past couple of New Years i have made many new year's resolutions that i have failed to stick at, this year i haven't made any. The reason for this isn't due to the lack luster attitude of "well i'll only break them anyway" but because for once i don't feel there is anything about me that i want to change.
Admittedly at times i can drink too much and i know i smoke too many than i should and surely running for the bus in the morning should count as exercise?! This is me and i'm happy with it, for a while it felt like i was being taken with the current and i could tell a stranger everything about my monotonous week as it was all planned out by my stuck in the rut lifestyle, last March/April saw a change. It really was thanks to Dana who had to physically force me out of the house and back into that incestuous little place: the met lounge.
I had fun being single but that doesn't compare to how i feel about my relationship and Nick, he's not just my boyfriend but also a best friend. We can be close and romantic when we want to be but we can also just go food shopping together and stay at home all day playing Monkey Ball and feel safe in the knowledge that we don't know what we are going to do tomorrow but so long if it's with each other it'll be fine.
I like not knowing what the future has to offer and i may not have achieved a degree or a driving license or a successful engagement but i have got the freedom to do almost anything i want to. Finally i have dreams and i have plans and for once i think i might be able to make them reality.
Over the past couple of New Years i have made many new year's resolutions that i have failed to stick at, this year i haven't made any. The reason for this isn't due to the lack luster attitude of "well i'll only break them anyway" but because for once i don't feel there is anything about me that i want to change.
Admittedly at times i can drink too much and i know i smoke too many than i should and surely running for the bus in the morning should count as exercise?! This is me and i'm happy with it, for a while it felt like i was being taken with the current and i could tell a stranger everything about my monotonous week as it was all planned out by my stuck in the rut lifestyle, last March/April saw a change. It really was thanks to Dana who had to physically force me out of the house and back into that incestuous little place: the met lounge.
I had fun being single but that doesn't compare to how i feel about my relationship and Nick, he's not just my boyfriend but also a best friend. We can be close and romantic when we want to be but we can also just go food shopping together and stay at home all day playing Monkey Ball and feel safe in the knowledge that we don't know what we are going to do tomorrow but so long if it's with each other it'll be fine.
I like not knowing what the future has to offer and i may not have achieved a degree or a driving license or a successful engagement but i have got the freedom to do almost anything i want to. Finally i have dreams and i have plans and for once i think i might be able to make them reality.