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i have noticed throughout the course of this week that school is a very small place. nothing can stay secret for very long, even those secrets that you tell no one but yourself. somehow it all finds its way out. surprising, really, how much people talk. seriously.
i've had people i don't know come up to me and ask how i am.
i've had my ex-best friend stop me in the hall and hug me to make sure that i was ok.
i really don't know what to say other than sometimes other people's compassion is really amazing. i still stand my ground on the theory that people don't really care until something bad happens. and honestly, even if something bad DOES in fact happen, they only care because they feel obligated to. i still think that i'm in shock. it doesn't seem to be registering that my car is destroyed. i've been rather indifferent to the whole situation.
i've also decided that dealing with insurance agencies is a pain in the butt. you call them all day long and the one time Ms. IWASHEADCHEERLEADERINHIGHSCHOOLANDVOTEDMOSTLIKELYTOSUCCEED answers the phone on the other end in some town in the boonies of Oklahoma, you have to go into class. somehow it always works out that way.
my life has reverted to a series of aches and pains i can't remember getting. i really wish i could have thought a little harder about what i was doing....
there's still a distant thought in my head that won't go away....
...maybe it was my fault....
i've had people i don't know come up to me and ask how i am.
i've had my ex-best friend stop me in the hall and hug me to make sure that i was ok.
i really don't know what to say other than sometimes other people's compassion is really amazing. i still stand my ground on the theory that people don't really care until something bad happens. and honestly, even if something bad DOES in fact happen, they only care because they feel obligated to. i still think that i'm in shock. it doesn't seem to be registering that my car is destroyed. i've been rather indifferent to the whole situation.
i've also decided that dealing with insurance agencies is a pain in the butt. you call them all day long and the one time Ms. IWASHEADCHEERLEADERINHIGHSCHOOLANDVOTEDMOSTLIKELYTOSUCCEED answers the phone on the other end in some town in the boonies of Oklahoma, you have to go into class. somehow it always works out that way.
my life has reverted to a series of aches and pains i can't remember getting. i really wish i could have thought a little harder about what i was doing....
there's still a distant thought in my head that won't go away....
...maybe it was my fault....