Frustration
This is starting to drive me crazy. The contractions build and build until I am almost to the point where I can go to the hospital and then.... nuthin. And it happens everytime I go somewhere, so now I am feeling confined to the house. The walking and contracting is exhausting, so I do it to the point where I can't anymore, and must sit down, but as soon as I sit down and rest they just stop. I want to be done, I'm tired, I want to meet Madeline, and I am so uncomfortable. I am nervous because I managed to get so far without much effort, and I am afraid that these contractions are being productive and continuing to dilate and efface me, and by the time they actually get to the point where I won't get turned away at the door I will have a little head sticking out between my legs. I don't know what to do at this point, I wish I had another appointment scheduled for Monday at least so if nothing happens this weekend I could at least get checked and get some reassurance that I'm not going to be having her on the kitchen floor. And it's also frustrating because everybody is on alert status, and has been on vacation, it's the weekend, the timing is not going to be so good again. People are going to wind up missing work if it isn't this weekend, and that is annoying, too, I don't want to be a hassle. Madeline, you cooperated last week with the whole version thing, can't you cooperate this weekend as well? Ugh.