Current Thoughts
1) Benadryl (Specifically, Grape-Flavored Children's Chewable Tablets)
I'm going through one of my allergic-to-the-house-stages, so I've been ingesting a great deal of this. Benadryl is such an ineffective drug. I don't think it does anything for my allergies, but it knocks me out so immediately and peacefully that I just love it. I wouldn't mind getting addicted to this in times of boredom (aka now). I wonder if I might already be addicted to Benadryl, as last night was a rare hypoallergenic evening, I didn't take any Benadryl, and I couldn't fall asleep at all. Hmmm...
2) My Writing
Extended unemployment is great for a writer because the writer has endless free time to devote to writing and no worldly employment activities to attend to. I am a lousy writer, however, and all my recent work is worthless. My grandmother made a point of asking me about my writing, which made me feel sorry and guilty and miserable that I had nothing positive to discuss on that front either. That said, I am thrilled that my grandmother thought to ask me about something else besides "How's The Job Search?" and "How's The Boyfriend?" Grrrrrr.....
3) My Family
On the one hand, it's nice to have everyone home for the first time in a year. We've been having the fondue dinners, Shabbat dinners, and bowling excursions that make me love the six of us with happy exuberance.
On the other hand, my family is also driving me crazy. For instance, I don't find the sudden switch from complete disinterest in my love life to extreme interest and encouragement in my love life endearing or comforting. I find it nauseating.
4) The Economy
I don't care. You'd think that I would, being politically-minded and a job-seeker, but oddly, I don't. I'm tired of caring and I'm tired of people, who, upon hearing about my employment status, try to cheer me up by saying it's not my fault, it's the economy. Even if it were true, I'm not sure why that's supposed to cheer me up. But it's not even true. My employment status is the result of several bad business decisions, all risks that didn't pay off + lack of planning and it's entirely my fault.
This is part of why the job hunt continues to be so difficult. Job hunters are supposed to sell themselves as being invaluable assets to their prospective employers; aware of all my poor business decisions, I can't help but find the merchandise (me) quite defective.
5) Public Television
Public television is wonderful, especially when you don't have cable. I am becoming a big NJN fan. I like Ciao Italia, Zonya's Health Bites, and that Advanced Spanish show (which my brother finds to be not terribly advanced, but as a non-speaker, I find it educational)
6) Body Image
My own body image is quite good these days. My haircut looks amazing, I uncovered all these clothes I forgot I had that look really good on me, and I have a new diet suitable to my couch potato lifestyle so I'm maintaining my lovely figure in spite of my total lack of exercise (The secret: It's all about portion control. Eat just till you're satisfied.)
Unfortunately, my sister is still struggling with body image issues. I thought she had more or less recovered from her eating disorder, but I have learned that although she is no longer starving herself, she still has extremely unrealistic weight loss goals. I just found out that she wants to get a nose job. WTF?!
7) Adam
I really can't decide how I feel about him because I'm too busy loathing everyone's, especially my mother's, reaction to him. I think I'll be pleased when he's stationed in Hawaii for the next two and a half years because then my family will finally quit being so sickeningly accomodating.
8) Talking To People
I have grown to dislike this activity greatly. I can't work up any interest in meeting new people and I have no desire to share any details about my self or my life either. And I find that I hate trying to keep in touch with friends from Israel because they inevitably ask about my two least favorite subjects, Job and Adam.
9) Project Runway
Very addictive. I've been watching episodes of the Australian and Canadian versions on Youtube.
I'm going through one of my allergic-to-the-house-stages, so I've been ingesting a great deal of this. Benadryl is such an ineffective drug. I don't think it does anything for my allergies, but it knocks me out so immediately and peacefully that I just love it. I wouldn't mind getting addicted to this in times of boredom (aka now). I wonder if I might already be addicted to Benadryl, as last night was a rare hypoallergenic evening, I didn't take any Benadryl, and I couldn't fall asleep at all. Hmmm...
2) My Writing
Extended unemployment is great for a writer because the writer has endless free time to devote to writing and no worldly employment activities to attend to. I am a lousy writer, however, and all my recent work is worthless. My grandmother made a point of asking me about my writing, which made me feel sorry and guilty and miserable that I had nothing positive to discuss on that front either. That said, I am thrilled that my grandmother thought to ask me about something else besides "How's The Job Search?" and "How's The Boyfriend?" Grrrrrr.....
3) My Family
On the one hand, it's nice to have everyone home for the first time in a year. We've been having the fondue dinners, Shabbat dinners, and bowling excursions that make me love the six of us with happy exuberance.
On the other hand, my family is also driving me crazy. For instance, I don't find the sudden switch from complete disinterest in my love life to extreme interest and encouragement in my love life endearing or comforting. I find it nauseating.
4) The Economy
I don't care. You'd think that I would, being politically-minded and a job-seeker, but oddly, I don't. I'm tired of caring and I'm tired of people, who, upon hearing about my employment status, try to cheer me up by saying it's not my fault, it's the economy. Even if it were true, I'm not sure why that's supposed to cheer me up. But it's not even true. My employment status is the result of several bad business decisions, all risks that didn't pay off + lack of planning and it's entirely my fault.
This is part of why the job hunt continues to be so difficult. Job hunters are supposed to sell themselves as being invaluable assets to their prospective employers; aware of all my poor business decisions, I can't help but find the merchandise (me) quite defective.
5) Public Television
Public television is wonderful, especially when you don't have cable. I am becoming a big NJN fan. I like Ciao Italia, Zonya's Health Bites, and that Advanced Spanish show (which my brother finds to be not terribly advanced, but as a non-speaker, I find it educational)
6) Body Image
My own body image is quite good these days. My haircut looks amazing, I uncovered all these clothes I forgot I had that look really good on me, and I have a new diet suitable to my couch potato lifestyle so I'm maintaining my lovely figure in spite of my total lack of exercise (The secret: It's all about portion control. Eat just till you're satisfied.)
Unfortunately, my sister is still struggling with body image issues. I thought she had more or less recovered from her eating disorder, but I have learned that although she is no longer starving herself, she still has extremely unrealistic weight loss goals. I just found out that she wants to get a nose job. WTF?!
7) Adam
I really can't decide how I feel about him because I'm too busy loathing everyone's, especially my mother's, reaction to him. I think I'll be pleased when he's stationed in Hawaii for the next two and a half years because then my family will finally quit being so sickeningly accomodating.
8) Talking To People
I have grown to dislike this activity greatly. I can't work up any interest in meeting new people and I have no desire to share any details about my self or my life either. And I find that I hate trying to keep in touch with friends from Israel because they inevitably ask about my two least favorite subjects, Job and Adam.
9) Project Runway
Very addictive. I've been watching episodes of the Australian and Canadian versions on Youtube.