life on stand-by
how the fuck can you answer a question like that? it was like the best feeling i've ever had and the worst feeling i've ever had happening at the same exact moment in time. on one hand, i couldn't be happier. i mean, to almost assuredly know that you will get what you want more than anything. how could i not be happy about that? on the other hand i'm so fucking frustrated. why not now?!? i guess i'll never really understand that, but maybe i'm not meant to. i feel like i'm experiencing "life on stand-by", and whatever i do now is just going to be to kill time until it happens. man, that's such an odd feeling? alright,i guess it's time to live life "for me" again. i just hope that whatever i end up doing doesn't change what i feel now.
then there's always the possibility that it won't happen at all. but we're not thinking about that right now, are we?
then there's always the possibility that it won't happen at all. but we're not thinking about that right now, are we?