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*taps her REAL FINGERNAILS in a bored "taptaptap"fashion* Yeah, I use to bite them, but while I was in Michigan Paul would hit my hand out my hand everytime I did so now..I magically have long fingernails.
Work has been kicking my butt. CLUTZ me decided to tie my shoe on an unsteady shelf right as 2 parties of 17 came in and BAM WHOOSH KABOOM! Silverware and menus ALL OVER THE FLOOR. I was mortified. Horrible times.
Men. Can we just sit back and talk about them for a second. This guy, to begin with, is a regular at the bar. He comes in, he's nice, he's cute and I'm nice and cute back. Not in a flirting way by ANY Means. He's probably almost 30 and hes a cop..don't want to go there. Anywhoo he knew me before I started working there from me being at the bar myself. My father and him are good aquantainces as well. Well he comes and I do my usual toe cross over when I say hello (I do it EVERY TIME I'm a dweeb) and I said "Hi Kevin" with a big grin on my face. He came over and gave me this HUGE HUG. The man is COVERED in the same cologne PAUL wheres...so I got sappy right afterwards. But I was COVERED as well because of the hug and I smelled like Paul for the rest of the night. I felt silly. He insisted on telling my mother when she came in what a beautiful WOMAN I was (of all things...). Nothing happened, he never asked me out or anything he ended up going out with two servers later :) Later on in the night some guy named...*thinks* Marcello? I dunno but it was very italian. He had JUST gotten a divorce and he wants me to tell him if things with Paul and I don't work out *sigh*. I also found out that I'm hotter when I'm sweaty. That's useful information :-\ Hm. Men. I swear I've never been hit on more until I fell in love. Oh and theres this manager at Publix that saw me at a gas station and wants my aunt to hook us up... No. sorry. Hes hot, theres no doubt about that but *sigh* I just have no intention or desire to lose Paul. The goosebumps and butterflies haven't left in our relationship and I like that. Yes we are completely comfortable with each other but its never boring. He can still give me goosebumps after a kiss or tingles just by walking by. Its unlike anything I've ever had before and its just...craziness. anyways...
I'm so scared. Im scared as Sam, but as Samantha in love, I'm not scared. The rational side of me (believe it or not I have one) is aware that this year was the most life changing year ever. This time last year I had just finished school and I was in a dead end relationship. I had the best new years eve in 2003. I was high about the ground in an airplane whose Captain I though was the love of my life. I was thinking "Wow, how great, this year is going to be amazing..." and Wow...this year has been pretty messed up. Its not over by any means. I just know that the rest of my life lies in what happens in 2004. I'm either going to be a wife, and move 500 miles away from home (which I NEVER planned on doing) or I'll just be Sam again, alone, and here.
Realized this month that my birth control pills have expired. I would go back to my ob/gyn and get a refill but I can't go to her because they dropped my insurance. SO now I'm thinking about going to the Health Department and getting them for uber cheap. I don't know how that works though. Anybody done that before? Anybody got a doctor thats fabulous OUT Of the gainesville area? Anybody got anything? :) My aunt works at the pharmacy so I managed to get one more months worth, so now I just have to make plans for next month. *sigh* Hopefully something will work out.
Well my brother is here and trying to get me to go play baseball...*sigh* he's 23. I dont want to play baseball. Hmm maybe I can get him to play cards with me. Lets go see. You guys keep yourselves entertained too!
Work has been kicking my butt. CLUTZ me decided to tie my shoe on an unsteady shelf right as 2 parties of 17 came in and BAM WHOOSH KABOOM! Silverware and menus ALL OVER THE FLOOR. I was mortified. Horrible times.
Men. Can we just sit back and talk about them for a second. This guy, to begin with, is a regular at the bar. He comes in, he's nice, he's cute and I'm nice and cute back. Not in a flirting way by ANY Means. He's probably almost 30 and hes a cop..don't want to go there. Anywhoo he knew me before I started working there from me being at the bar myself. My father and him are good aquantainces as well. Well he comes and I do my usual toe cross over when I say hello (I do it EVERY TIME I'm a dweeb) and I said "Hi Kevin" with a big grin on my face. He came over and gave me this HUGE HUG. The man is COVERED in the same cologne PAUL wheres...so I got sappy right afterwards. But I was COVERED as well because of the hug and I smelled like Paul for the rest of the night. I felt silly. He insisted on telling my mother when she came in what a beautiful WOMAN I was (of all things...). Nothing happened, he never asked me out or anything he ended up going out with two servers later :) Later on in the night some guy named...*thinks* Marcello? I dunno but it was very italian. He had JUST gotten a divorce and he wants me to tell him if things with Paul and I don't work out *sigh*. I also found out that I'm hotter when I'm sweaty. That's useful information :-\ Hm. Men. I swear I've never been hit on more until I fell in love. Oh and theres this manager at Publix that saw me at a gas station and wants my aunt to hook us up... No. sorry. Hes hot, theres no doubt about that but *sigh* I just have no intention or desire to lose Paul. The goosebumps and butterflies haven't left in our relationship and I like that. Yes we are completely comfortable with each other but its never boring. He can still give me goosebumps after a kiss or tingles just by walking by. Its unlike anything I've ever had before and its just...craziness. anyways...
I'm so scared. Im scared as Sam, but as Samantha in love, I'm not scared. The rational side of me (believe it or not I have one) is aware that this year was the most life changing year ever. This time last year I had just finished school and I was in a dead end relationship. I had the best new years eve in 2003. I was high about the ground in an airplane whose Captain I though was the love of my life. I was thinking "Wow, how great, this year is going to be amazing..." and Wow...this year has been pretty messed up. Its not over by any means. I just know that the rest of my life lies in what happens in 2004. I'm either going to be a wife, and move 500 miles away from home (which I NEVER planned on doing) or I'll just be Sam again, alone, and here.
Realized this month that my birth control pills have expired. I would go back to my ob/gyn and get a refill but I can't go to her because they dropped my insurance. SO now I'm thinking about going to the Health Department and getting them for uber cheap. I don't know how that works though. Anybody done that before? Anybody got a doctor thats fabulous OUT Of the gainesville area? Anybody got anything? :) My aunt works at the pharmacy so I managed to get one more months worth, so now I just have to make plans for next month. *sigh* Hopefully something will work out.
Well my brother is here and trying to get me to go play baseball...*sigh* he's 23. I dont want to play baseball. Hmm maybe I can get him to play cards with me. Lets go see. You guys keep yourselves entertained too!