Hurricane
So I feel like King Lear. Yeah... very random beginning to a journal entry, but if any of you have ever read Shakespeare's King Lear, you'd know that the weather and how whatever happened to him was mirrored either by the weather or his kingdom. Lately I've been so caught up on other people's problems; I have not taken any time for myself. I have tried to help David as much as I can with mission prep, I have tried to get Sydney to adjust to college life, I have tried really hard for Melissa to join me for a temple trip or at least a 3 hour church meeting, and I have tried to get Andrew to listen to me. I've felt helpless these past couple of days. I’ve just been focusing on everyone else's problems.
I finally had a nervous break-down two days ago at work. My third day on the job, and things were going terribly wrong. I felt overwhelmed by my personal problems, as stated above, and on top of that, I spill water on a client's laptop. The water managed to get into the CD drive. I was so nervous. I cleaned the table and left after getting him more water. I went back to my desk and froze. I just FROZE. Then, tears rolled down my cheeks. My sweet co-workers asked me what was wrong. But I just had so much going on inside, I could not speak. I just sat there, and cried.
I've known my boss since I was six. She's a few years older than me. So she knows me well. Not as well as David, Andrew, Sydney and Melissa, but still well enough. She took me to the back room to discuss my troubles and I honestly just gave her the basics to get her off my back. I got cleaned up and touched up my make up. I preformed my duties well again. I was still shaken up though.
I felt like I was going through a hurricane. Like my life was spinning out of control and there was nothing I could do to make it better. Ironically enough, there was a hurricane last night. Hence, the King Lear mention in the beginning of my entry. Hurricane Katrina did not do that much damage. Only one thing that I’ve been fond of for 18 years, died. I grew up playing around this baby palm tree my whole life. Yesterday, it died.
So I noticed something yesterday. I noticed that as the hurricane was going on, how the Lord was protecting my family and me. I noticed what I have not been noticing lately, the Lord’s protection over me. I also noticed just how much David worries about me. He called me last night just to check if I was ok during the hurricane.
Just like the hurricane, my storm passed over. I’m ok now and I have a brighter outlook on things. So that’s my update. Now you know why I have not had the time to update. Sorry.
Bye now.
I finally had a nervous break-down two days ago at work. My third day on the job, and things were going terribly wrong. I felt overwhelmed by my personal problems, as stated above, and on top of that, I spill water on a client's laptop. The water managed to get into the CD drive. I was so nervous. I cleaned the table and left after getting him more water. I went back to my desk and froze. I just FROZE. Then, tears rolled down my cheeks. My sweet co-workers asked me what was wrong. But I just had so much going on inside, I could not speak. I just sat there, and cried.
I've known my boss since I was six. She's a few years older than me. So she knows me well. Not as well as David, Andrew, Sydney and Melissa, but still well enough. She took me to the back room to discuss my troubles and I honestly just gave her the basics to get her off my back. I got cleaned up and touched up my make up. I preformed my duties well again. I was still shaken up though.
I felt like I was going through a hurricane. Like my life was spinning out of control and there was nothing I could do to make it better. Ironically enough, there was a hurricane last night. Hence, the King Lear mention in the beginning of my entry. Hurricane Katrina did not do that much damage. Only one thing that I’ve been fond of for 18 years, died. I grew up playing around this baby palm tree my whole life. Yesterday, it died.
So I noticed something yesterday. I noticed that as the hurricane was going on, how the Lord was protecting my family and me. I noticed what I have not been noticing lately, the Lord’s protection over me. I also noticed just how much David worries about me. He called me last night just to check if I was ok during the hurricane.
Just like the hurricane, my storm passed over. I’m ok now and I have a brighter outlook on things. So that’s my update. Now you know why I have not had the time to update. Sorry.
Bye now.