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Saw Little Miss Sunshine - really really good. Made me think.
All this time I was running away to "supposedtos", as in, I'm supposed to want to do this and that, I'm supposed to be this music star or an academic or a Japanese expert, blah blah. And I wasn't satisfied and was sad.
But you know what? I LOVE this apartment, I love my BF, like my job, love my friends, love that I'm writing music again. I'm actually happy here, and I need to let myself stay that way. I need to strive towards goals when they come, but I need to also let myself, for once, be at ease, and smile, and feel free. Just a little.
All this time I was running away to "supposedtos", as in, I'm supposed to want to do this and that, I'm supposed to be this music star or an academic or a Japanese expert, blah blah. And I wasn't satisfied and was sad.
But you know what? I LOVE this apartment, I love my BF, like my job, love my friends, love that I'm writing music again. I'm actually happy here, and I need to let myself stay that way. I need to strive towards goals when they come, but I need to also let myself, for once, be at ease, and smile, and feel free. Just a little.