man oh man what to think or do
well i fixed my truck today i am happy about that. i have been doing very good no emo trips i do think i need to stop asking weird questions though. just a thought what up with things in the world now days seriously. people are no longer honest people are hatefull its bull shit. it sucks to hear im just used to guys that get angery and are jealous people. that is sad to hear. i think it should be more like im shocked to hear of jealousy and rage. but hey i do have my own momments of brutality i meen you dont get 3 fucked up knuckles from give out hugs all the time.
i think i probly said something today that made beth mad cause i didnt hear jeff tell her to get off the phone but she said she had to go soooo its like what the heck. i meen what am i saposed to think im told" i cant do anything this weekend" then she leave for the night. yeah i thought that was weird but hey no big deal i wasnt trying to make one out of it either i was just kinda wondering you know. curiosity i guess is a bad trait of me who knew.
ive noticed ive started to get alot more cocky lately and ive started to say more of what i was thinking if something wasnt going my way ill bluntly say you know what the fuck is up. i think im just starting to get a little more ..... well normal. no more door mat. hahahahaha. oh funny thing carly sent me an email today basically saying i got dumped idk what to do i need your help. so i told her you know i suck with relationships but just dont try to start another one hang out with friends wait a while. i meen i hate saying shit to people like that cause i know i wouldnt listen to it. i meen when you give avice to people and they never follow it through what the fuck are you saposed to think. it gets old trying to help people and never getting anything back.
im kinda sick of constantly being nice to every one. im kinda sick of helping and never getting my pay check. maybe i should just start demanding stuff you know. be like ive helped you alot ive listened to i fix sit for you i grade papers for you i listen to you talk about you boyfriend in collage for hours on end when the fuck am i gonna get some damn retribution. but you know i dont know if i could do that cause im kinda not like that. idk maybe this shrink can help me out or something. lets see. but yeah i havent put in here yet so here it is i got in a car crash im not saposed to be here adn yould be surprised how little people care that i was that close to never beening seen by them again.
you know what humans and peopel in general are fucking pig fucks that just want want want and never give...... maybe thats what it is i dont like about most people. no one cares sincerly about on another they just do things for them selves i meen im guilty of that some times myself but for the most part im wiling to go out of my way to help other people. well you know what as of right now im going to stop trying so hard ask once for things if i get a no then basicaly i dont give a fuck.
life is pritty lame. so i say this kick it in the balls and steal its wallet. make and take the most you can from it. but hey be thoughtfull of your fellow man. most poeple arent be different be an origanal cause come on man we have so little time to live do you seriously want to spend it with some one you dont think can help you along or could help you even raise a kid fuck no do you seriously want to look back and see yourself as a mirror image of every one else fuck no be your self and enjoy life. it is hard to do at times ill admit to that one but try and try. it may come to be better things then you thought look for people in your life that will raise you to a hightend life no person in your life should bring down your potential.
i think i probly said something today that made beth mad cause i didnt hear jeff tell her to get off the phone but she said she had to go soooo its like what the heck. i meen what am i saposed to think im told" i cant do anything this weekend" then she leave for the night. yeah i thought that was weird but hey no big deal i wasnt trying to make one out of it either i was just kinda wondering you know. curiosity i guess is a bad trait of me who knew.
ive noticed ive started to get alot more cocky lately and ive started to say more of what i was thinking if something wasnt going my way ill bluntly say you know what the fuck is up. i think im just starting to get a little more ..... well normal. no more door mat. hahahahaha. oh funny thing carly sent me an email today basically saying i got dumped idk what to do i need your help. so i told her you know i suck with relationships but just dont try to start another one hang out with friends wait a while. i meen i hate saying shit to people like that cause i know i wouldnt listen to it. i meen when you give avice to people and they never follow it through what the fuck are you saposed to think. it gets old trying to help people and never getting anything back.
im kinda sick of constantly being nice to every one. im kinda sick of helping and never getting my pay check. maybe i should just start demanding stuff you know. be like ive helped you alot ive listened to i fix sit for you i grade papers for you i listen to you talk about you boyfriend in collage for hours on end when the fuck am i gonna get some damn retribution. but you know i dont know if i could do that cause im kinda not like that. idk maybe this shrink can help me out or something. lets see. but yeah i havent put in here yet so here it is i got in a car crash im not saposed to be here adn yould be surprised how little people care that i was that close to never beening seen by them again.
you know what humans and peopel in general are fucking pig fucks that just want want want and never give...... maybe thats what it is i dont like about most people. no one cares sincerly about on another they just do things for them selves i meen im guilty of that some times myself but for the most part im wiling to go out of my way to help other people. well you know what as of right now im going to stop trying so hard ask once for things if i get a no then basicaly i dont give a fuck.
life is pritty lame. so i say this kick it in the balls and steal its wallet. make and take the most you can from it. but hey be thoughtfull of your fellow man. most poeple arent be different be an origanal cause come on man we have so little time to live do you seriously want to spend it with some one you dont think can help you along or could help you even raise a kid fuck no do you seriously want to look back and see yourself as a mirror image of every one else fuck no be your self and enjoy life. it is hard to do at times ill admit to that one but try and try. it may come to be better things then you thought look for people in your life that will raise you to a hightend life no person in your life should bring down your potential.