Agony
Lonily beyond words. No one with a real connection with to talk to. No desire to find a new path.
I'm seeing a psychothereatpist on the tenth. Guess its been long enough without being diagnossed as crazy. It needs to be done if i want disability though. The one god thing that seems to be comeing from this tragedy is that my pcp and therapist have decided that i not only need disability but that its inevitable. I wil probably get it near to a decade faster becasue of all this which is a gift that i should be eternally grateful to her for. I just can't get past how easily she was willing to abandon our friendship. Any new girl who had tod me i needed to stop talking to her would have been told to get the fuck out. Guess i just care for her more then she did me.
I'm seeing a psychothereatpist on the tenth. Guess its been long enough without being diagnossed as crazy. It needs to be done if i want disability though. The one god thing that seems to be comeing from this tragedy is that my pcp and therapist have decided that i not only need disability but that its inevitable. I wil probably get it near to a decade faster becasue of all this which is a gift that i should be eternally grateful to her for. I just can't get past how easily she was willing to abandon our friendship. Any new girl who had tod me i needed to stop talking to her would have been told to get the fuck out. Guess i just care for her more then she did me.