Healing
Today was an interesting day. I am much more numb than I realized. I don't like being alone right now, but I don't want to be with just anyone. I had to go to two concerts today, and at both I sat by myself and left as soon as I could. I just don't like being with most other people.
The first recital I went to was a flute recital. It was a joint recital by RW and KB, two flutists in the studio. It totally made me feel better about myself because they were really really bad. Their intonation was bad, their tone was bad, their rhythm was bad...
The second concert was fabulous. It was the Wind Symphony concert. The first piece was a world premiere by a very young composer named Roy Magnuson. The piece was called Seeking, Seeking. Something about this piece really got to me. The piece started out somewhat plaintive and ended very angry, painful, and powerful. It drew a very large volume of emotions to the surface causing me to start bawling in the middle of the concert. It was incredible. I'm so glad I was sitting by myself. The second piece was Lincoln Portrait by Aaron Copland. It made me feel so good. It didn't make me cry, but it made me feel good. After the intermission, the band played David Maslanka's Symphony No. 3. This was another very cathartic again. The middle was one of those angry parts that just made me cry so much. The very last two movements were laments. They were sad and healing which was the most amazing feeling in the world. I cried so hard throughout the concert and it just helped so much.
To make things even better, I got a call from K today. An actual call!! She is feeling so much better which is so good to hear. She doesn't want anyone to visit her yet, which I understand. however, I hope she does want us soon.... I'd like to see her before she goes home home. So yes, this was a good day.
The first recital I went to was a flute recital. It was a joint recital by RW and KB, two flutists in the studio. It totally made me feel better about myself because they were really really bad. Their intonation was bad, their tone was bad, their rhythm was bad...
The second concert was fabulous. It was the Wind Symphony concert. The first piece was a world premiere by a very young composer named Roy Magnuson. The piece was called Seeking, Seeking. Something about this piece really got to me. The piece started out somewhat plaintive and ended very angry, painful, and powerful. It drew a very large volume of emotions to the surface causing me to start bawling in the middle of the concert. It was incredible. I'm so glad I was sitting by myself. The second piece was Lincoln Portrait by Aaron Copland. It made me feel so good. It didn't make me cry, but it made me feel good. After the intermission, the band played David Maslanka's Symphony No. 3. This was another very cathartic again. The middle was one of those angry parts that just made me cry so much. The very last two movements were laments. They were sad and healing which was the most amazing feeling in the world. I cried so hard throughout the concert and it just helped so much.
To make things even better, I got a call from K today. An actual call!! She is feeling so much better which is so good to hear. She doesn't want anyone to visit her yet, which I understand. however, I hope she does want us soon.... I'd like to see her before she goes home home. So yes, this was a good day.