love in the time of science - chapter eleven (part 2)

[morgenwrites]

This is Part 2.  Please read Part 1 first.

Title: Love in the Time of Science
Author: Morgen
Summary: Love. Tragedy. The things we’ve left unsaid. This is their story. Set after episode 5.05.
Disclaimer: I am not famous. I do not own TV shows. I am a poor college student with a laptop and a serious procrastination habit. 
Rating: Written for grownups

Comments

[lemonfirefly]

{Maybe this was how married people fought too. With slammed down cups and furiously scrubbed plates. Silences that said a lot.}

Oh, domesticMer. Especially when DOING THE DISHES with domesticDer. You are so very, very broken, aren't you? I - somehow - forget sometimes, I think. Not completely. But in the show we don't hear what she's thinking and even though EP is very lovely and expressive, it just can't compete with all the written-out evidence of Mer's jagged, broken thoughts. And I kind of wish that she'd dropped a plate rather than the griddle but then they'd have had to clean it up and that would have gotten in the way of THE SEX.

By the way? I WAS RIGHT. And a very, very good present it was. :D

There was just something so whooshy about Mer sitting underneath the table and scribbling, completely alone but for her blue marker. And then, some twenty-five years later, having REALLY HOT SEX on the same table. AND NOT ALONE.

Second qoute:
{Her mother hadn’t noticed the day she’d sat down there and tried to die.}

Um. I thought we - Real You, me, and probably a lot of other people - were convinced that Ellis had subconsciously tried to kill herself, but... isn't Mer - both Fic Mer and Show Mer - convinced that she didn't really? Or is that intended to be a somewhat flippant, post-coital-fog thought that she doesn't really mean? Because it sounds a lot better than 'Her mother hadn't noticed the day she'd sat down and inadvertantly nearly died because she stole a scalpel and was above getting drunk'.

But yeah. Basically, you are the goddess of Domestic MerDer, Sexy MerDer, Communicating MerDer, Angsty MerDer... actually, you know what? Just name it.

[morgenwrites]

First of all, thank you!!! I'm so glad you liked the chapter.

Second of all, I'm very, very impressed by your sixth sense about the sexing! Clearly, you are talented.

And I'm glad you liked domesticMer! And domesticDer!! They make me very giddy. Yeah, seeing as how Mer was raised by wolves, she never really had an example of parents doing routine boring things together around the house. She's basically figuring it out with Der on her own, and I think the whole thing is just ridiculously adorable.

And yay, I'm glad you liked the whole table juxtaposition thingy. That was pretty much my favorite thing about the chapter, so I'm glad it worked.

Also, okay the part where Mer thinks, "Her mother hadn’t noticed the day she’d sat down there and tried to die." This is my (perhaps poorly done) attempt to show that Mer is developing some conflicting opinions on her mother's suicide attempt. Basically, deep down there's a part of her that is starting to acknowledge that Derek is right and that on some level, her mother did want to die when she slit her wrists. And, when she's thoroughly sexed and basically just a pile of mush with all her defenses down, that's how the thought flits through her mind. It's instinctive, reflexive, what have you. She's not even fully aware of it though because, when she's more together and discussing it with Der, she's very adamant and argumentative about how her mother didn't want to die. That's what therapy said and so on. And she's very, very opinionated about this because there is some denial going on there that she isn't aware of yet herself. But then the way she thinks of the suicide attempt when she's all blissed out and feeling safe in Der's arms is supposed to be a clue that Mer is in a bit of denial about what her mother was really feeling that day. I'm sorry it didn't make sense! Ugh...clearly I fail today :( :(

Anyway, thanks for reading!!

[lemonfirefly]

[clearly I fail today]

Oh, come on. NO! I just wasn't sure where you were going with that, is all. It's pretty much what I was expecting, because she didn't yell quite so much or get quite so defensive. So I was kind of thinking that she was being flippant and sexified and so it appears I was kind of on the right track. :P

[I'm glad you liked the whole table juxtaposition thingy]

Yes. Juxtaposition. That is what I meant by 'whooshy'. Glad you got that :D Stuff about past and present and future possibilities all going... whoosh. Hee.

Wow, this is waaay short for me, huh? I think I'm going to stop here and save up some ramble credit for future comments. :)

[morgenwrites]

Yay. I'm very relieved to know I still make some kinda sense. :D

Hee. Whooshy. Yes. I rather liked the word. I was hoping juxtaposition meant what I thought it did, and I think I'm right.

Also, are you back to watching Grey's as it airs yet? Because last night. Ohhhhh last nighttttttt. But I'll say nothing in case you haven't seen it.

[lemonfirefly]

Yes, indeed. Juxtaposition kind of means putting things close together to show how different they are, or something like that. Which I'm not sure is what you meant, but whatever. Too tired to figure it out.

[are you back to watching Grey's as it airs yet?]

No! Noooooooooooooooooo. Sniffle. But I have seen An Honest Mistake, and have finally talked myself down to a pro/con list rather than my usual RAAAMBLE because I just don't have the time right now. And I want to put that up before I see anything else. What are we up to now? 5.17? Oh, god, please don't let it be .18. Is it .18? *hides* So now I've made myself post my pathetic 5.16 review before I read or see anything else. And I haven't done that yet. BECAUSE OF THE ENORMOUS TIME ZAP. So I haven't read either of your reviews and I haven't seen anything past AHM, and basically? Sniffle. Because I have a slightly massive but slipped-in exam coming up on Tuesday and so I'm kind of drowning in textbooks here. And, and? THERE'S MORE ON TOP OF THAT. BEFORE AND AFTER. So yeah. The answer, I fear, is no. (Hee. Before and After. Stupid wormy McWorm. And when did PrP stop being all crossovery? Do I have to watch MORE to catch up?)

And even when I do have time, I still can't watch it as it airs, at least for the forseeable future. (And even when I could, it was when I was on semi-vacation and by then I was on eastern and then even once ATLANTIC time and then it was at 10 until 11 and I was leaving for NY at four in the morning. Which was delightful, let me tell you.) But I can usually catch it Friday, have my blather up by Saturday and then run over to your post as soon as that happens. But now, THE INSANE LACK OF TIME has completely screwed up my plans. (And 'screwed' is not what I originally typed. :P)

[morgenwrites]

Yeah, yeah. Juxtaposition. That's pretty much what I meant.

Also...ahhhh, I feel for you and your Grey's behind-ness. I'm going to Greece for two weeks in April and will have no internet or Grey's in any way while I am going, and THIS IS PROVING VERY STRESSFUL TO ME. ALREADY. Ugh. I don't want to think about exciting MerDer things happening while I'm gone.

Anyway, I think we're on 5.17, but I'm not entirely sure. Umm...basically the only crossovery episode you have to watch PrP for is Before and After. So you should be caught up there I think. But...I hope you can get caught up soon. Because these last few episodes have been amazingggggg!!!!!!!!!!