you decision sounds harder then anything I have to do with the whole school thing, but if it makes you feel better most people are confused, even with what little I'm doing I am. The plan was do history, do grad school, be teacher (the one profession I always swore I wouldn't do when I was growing up because of all the snot ass kids who don't care about anything) I still can't get a clear deffinative answer out of anyone as to what exactly my course requirements are, half say I need a pure science the other half says I don't, I've never put much thought into doing honours, but everyone keeps telling me I should, I'm hopping to set it up so I could go eiter way at the end of the school year. I do well enough and I don't really try or care, I'm not really driven to do well except for a couple profs who I really respect and want to do well in their classes.
I don't really hang out with any other history majors, so I'm not sure what most people are doing. Every day at university regardless of how much fun I'm having or how nice the people are, I still wonder what the hell I'm doing there. The whole process of me going to a university was not some well planned out thing for me, I knew I'd go somewhere, but the plan my whole life was to go to sheridan college and study animation, basically I doubted that away and said or I'll go to acadia and study history, I like history. I'd much rather be somewhere that is just a sort of a creative thing like art or music, but I know I'm not good enough at either to make a decent living. So thats where I am, history is safe. What I'm starting to think now is that when I'm done I might just up and leave this place and go somewhere where I can try out the whole creative job thing, teaching can be a fall back plan. whatever. I'm not even going to pretend to know where I'll be when the acadia bubble bursts and I'm thrown out into real life, it's just kind of scary to think how old I'll be at that point, debt, how much of my life was spent in this little education sub culture.
Those people who are ultra driven along one bright and shining path, who have everything planned out 10 years in advance? if you ask me about them I think they have some sort of glandular problem. Just do what you think you want to, and as long as you don't force yourself into doing the things that you know you don't want to then your chances of being happy go up a little. life is big you can always write more papers, but you can't go back and take away all the stress and anxity.
there is no right answer to anything, it's hard to know what you want, easier to know what you don't, and basically nobody knows anything, and the people that say they do usually end up starting a cult or something, well maybe not. But mark my words life is the great challance of thinking up as much BS as possible and hoping that one of the many people out there who hear it listen and agree. ; )
I don't really hang out with any other history majors, so I'm not sure what most people are doing. Every day at university regardless of how much fun I'm having or how nice the people are, I still wonder what the hell I'm doing there. The whole process of me going to a university was not some well planned out thing for me, I knew I'd go somewhere, but the plan my whole life was to go to sheridan college and study animation, basically I doubted that away and said or I'll go to acadia and study history, I like history. I'd much rather be somewhere that is just a sort of a creative thing like art or music, but I know I'm not good enough at either to make a decent living. So thats where I am, history is safe. What I'm starting to think now is that when I'm done I might just up and leave this place and go somewhere where I can try out the whole creative job thing, teaching can be a fall back plan. whatever. I'm not even going to pretend to know where I'll be when the acadia bubble bursts and I'm thrown out into real life, it's just kind of scary to think how old I'll be at that point, debt, how much of my life was spent in this little education sub culture.
Those people who are ultra driven along one bright and shining path, who have everything planned out 10 years in advance? if you ask me about them I think they have some sort of glandular problem. Just do what you think you want to, and as long as you don't force yourself into doing the things that you know you don't want to then your chances of being happy go up a little. life is big you can always write more papers, but you can't go back and take away all the stress and anxity.
there is no right answer to anything, it's hard to know what you want, easier to know what you don't, and basically nobody knows anything, and the people that say they do usually end up starting a cult or something, well maybe not. But mark my words life is the great challance of thinking up as much BS as possible and hoping that one of the many people out there who hear it listen and agree. ; )
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