Fucking energetic snails... ill kill you.
I can't think. I feel terrible. My mind is just so foggy. I feel guilty. I feel targeted. I feel like I'm being blamed for something I didn't do and I've ignored it so long because it was ridiculous it has been blown out of proportion and I can't explain myself any longer because half the shit I'm being targeted for happened like 2 months ago I can't even remember that far back.
I'm annoyed and my stomach hurts. I'm tired of waking up, going to school, going to work and then getting high. I'm sick of not being 21 and being surrounded by people who are. Everything is just so routine but I don't have the motivation to go out and change it. Ya, somethings I can't change like school and work, but I wish I had more friends up here. Well, scratch that... I do have friends. I wish I hung out with them more but I never seem to have a good time. I wish I were more outgoing.
Its not like I don't like her, she is just a catty ass bitch. This girl eats breaths and poos drama. It is her life. I only wish it didn't take people so long to catch on to that. When you are around her, you have to watch what you say because no matter what you say it will be twisted and spread around and eventually turned into something completly sideways of what you had said before. Now having learned that, do not listen to a god damned thing she has to say. Do not take it seriously unless you have a least a couple of reliable references. I do like her but I can't fucking stand the shit she tries to pull half the time. Its just like, who the fuck do you think you are!?
Josh and I are fine, same thing as always. I just wish that our scheduals were different, we would be able to experience a lot more. Next quarters schedual should help... I am taking two online courses instead of on campus courses because I am going to Italy for two weeks. I think in order to stay on track in school I might take a class over the summer, but I think we all know that that isn't going to work out. I am just too lazy and I spend all year looking forward to the sun.
I just feel like I have no one sometimes. Even if I'm surrounded by people. I'm not depressed, but I can't explain what I'm thinking and then people don't understand.
I'm annoyed and my stomach hurts. I'm tired of waking up, going to school, going to work and then getting high. I'm sick of not being 21 and being surrounded by people who are. Everything is just so routine but I don't have the motivation to go out and change it. Ya, somethings I can't change like school and work, but I wish I had more friends up here. Well, scratch that... I do have friends. I wish I hung out with them more but I never seem to have a good time. I wish I were more outgoing.
Its not like I don't like her, she is just a catty ass bitch. This girl eats breaths and poos drama. It is her life. I only wish it didn't take people so long to catch on to that. When you are around her, you have to watch what you say because no matter what you say it will be twisted and spread around and eventually turned into something completly sideways of what you had said before. Now having learned that, do not listen to a god damned thing she has to say. Do not take it seriously unless you have a least a couple of reliable references. I do like her but I can't fucking stand the shit she tries to pull half the time. Its just like, who the fuck do you think you are!?
Josh and I are fine, same thing as always. I just wish that our scheduals were different, we would be able to experience a lot more. Next quarters schedual should help... I am taking two online courses instead of on campus courses because I am going to Italy for two weeks. I think in order to stay on track in school I might take a class over the summer, but I think we all know that that isn't going to work out. I am just too lazy and I spend all year looking forward to the sun.
I just feel like I have no one sometimes. Even if I'm surrounded by people. I'm not depressed, but I can't explain what I'm thinking and then people don't understand.