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i guess i'm happy i got to talk to him. text him, rather. he listened i suppose, if you count "im sry" as an actual answer. i suppose just the fact that he read what i had to say was an accomplishment, a step towards closure. i can't help but feel an open wound still, though. i'm not angry, i don't know what i am, i just sit and cry. whenever i lose velocity, i lose composure.
i'm never like this. with ryan i knew it was coming and i had time to heal, with ant i moved on. i know he's not my life and i shouldn't care but there's some part of me that came loose when he said he was done. i saw a glimmer of us together in his eye when we were at amelia, i wish he'd just admit it.
i'm never like this. with ryan i knew it was coming and i had time to heal, with ant i moved on. i know he's not my life and i shouldn't care but there's some part of me that came loose when he said he was done. i saw a glimmer of us together in his eye when we were at amelia, i wish he'd just admit it.