Take two.
Shortly after posting that entry I realised that it coul also be used as personal ad, with some changes. It's like adding floats to a plane. Pathetic in it's own way I suppose, but it's just odd enough to filter out the lightweights.
When someone explains a relationship the word 'chemistry' is often used.
I would like to expand on this idea. It seems to me that our Egos are made
of matter like the elements, some of us bond easily and well with anyone,
some of us will only bond under extreme pressure. Each relationship we make
changes the fundamental ways we live in the world, sodium and chloride will
take the edge off each other. Hydrogen and oxygen, are naturally promiscuous,
but always settle down together.
So many people in this area are as needy as fluorine; at least that's what
it feels like. They pull off your electrons to make themselves stable and
fulfilled. Even after they do that they often continue to take in other
electrons from other sources, just like oxygen and carbon. I am looking for
a covalent bond with someone; we are both stable elements by ourselves, but
still feel the need for that extra electron, without making ourselves ionic
in the process. Neither of us wants to be promiscuous like those metals we
all know who share their electrons with everybody around them.
Recently I have been feeling almost like neon. I lack the energy to keep
up the huge social networks of carbon. I don't want to become a metal,
sharing my electrons with everybody and then suddenly commenting to oxygen
at the last moment. But the truth is, I am not as noble as neon. I don't want
to be permanently alone. I'm more like boron, I bond well with other elements,
one at a time. I like a nice stable bond with just one other element.
That is about as far as I feel like stretching this particular metaphor.
Today is my twenty-fourth birthday, it's my chance to look back at the year
and see what I want to change in my life by the time I reach a quarter century.
Right now I have all the comfortable things I need to live my life, an
interesting and professional job, a roof over my head and food on my table.
I have a family that cares about me and I have my health. What I am missing
is the connection with other people; I have friends, but nobody I am truly
close to.
I have started eating my lunch next to a fountain in the middle of the mall
where I work. A pair of ducks sits in that fountain and mooches freebies from
the people who eat at the tables around the fountain. She always leads him
around and quacks loudly whenever he falls too far behind. He follows behind
her muttering under his breath. It's hilarious. At times like those I wish I
had someone to share the moment. When I'm walking through the woods and I find
something strange, hidden or wonderful I feel the same way. I would love it if
I could show you these places. None of my current friends like ducks.
I have not listed any 'requirements' for a woman here. That is intentional,
people often post looking for an ideal version of them selves (and I freely
admit I have no idea what women actually weigh). The most influential people
in my life have been the most different and unexpected; two people who are too
much alike will not challenge each other to grow. That sounds corny but I have
seen this at work in the relationship between my father (the school nerd) and
my stepmother (a former cheerleader) and how they strengthen each other.
Nevertheless, here are some specifics in the classic list format.
I am: A lover of science, a fast reader of books historical, allegorical and
sometimes sophomorical. Slender of build, longhaired and large footed. I work
too much and sleep too little. My best times at work are when I am explaining
something to a willing audience. Last year I decided to leave my baggage on
that stop and escaped carrying a handbag filled with marbles (another metaphor
I'm afraid). I can't run but I can walk faster then you. I am laughing, you
just don't know it yet. I'm 6'2" and 140 pounds When I walk through the forest
I examine the ants.
You are: Old enough to know better and Young enough not to care too much.
Still learning, and still loving it. Waaaay over blaming your parents for
ruining your life. A full person who wants but does not need a relationship.
Thin enough to be healthy, thick enough to be healthy. If you read my rambling
this far send me a note, a man can never have too many friends, the lover I
seek is hidden somewhere among them.
When someone explains a relationship the word 'chemistry' is often used.
I would like to expand on this idea. It seems to me that our Egos are made
of matter like the elements, some of us bond easily and well with anyone,
some of us will only bond under extreme pressure. Each relationship we make
changes the fundamental ways we live in the world, sodium and chloride will
take the edge off each other. Hydrogen and oxygen, are naturally promiscuous,
but always settle down together.
So many people in this area are as needy as fluorine; at least that's what
it feels like. They pull off your electrons to make themselves stable and
fulfilled. Even after they do that they often continue to take in other
electrons from other sources, just like oxygen and carbon. I am looking for
a covalent bond with someone; we are both stable elements by ourselves, but
still feel the need for that extra electron, without making ourselves ionic
in the process. Neither of us wants to be promiscuous like those metals we
all know who share their electrons with everybody around them.
Recently I have been feeling almost like neon. I lack the energy to keep
up the huge social networks of carbon. I don't want to become a metal,
sharing my electrons with everybody and then suddenly commenting to oxygen
at the last moment. But the truth is, I am not as noble as neon. I don't want
to be permanently alone. I'm more like boron, I bond well with other elements,
one at a time. I like a nice stable bond with just one other element.
That is about as far as I feel like stretching this particular metaphor.
Today is my twenty-fourth birthday, it's my chance to look back at the year
and see what I want to change in my life by the time I reach a quarter century.
Right now I have all the comfortable things I need to live my life, an
interesting and professional job, a roof over my head and food on my table.
I have a family that cares about me and I have my health. What I am missing
is the connection with other people; I have friends, but nobody I am truly
close to.
I have started eating my lunch next to a fountain in the middle of the mall
where I work. A pair of ducks sits in that fountain and mooches freebies from
the people who eat at the tables around the fountain. She always leads him
around and quacks loudly whenever he falls too far behind. He follows behind
her muttering under his breath. It's hilarious. At times like those I wish I
had someone to share the moment. When I'm walking through the woods and I find
something strange, hidden or wonderful I feel the same way. I would love it if
I could show you these places. None of my current friends like ducks.
I have not listed any 'requirements' for a woman here. That is intentional,
people often post looking for an ideal version of them selves (and I freely
admit I have no idea what women actually weigh). The most influential people
in my life have been the most different and unexpected; two people who are too
much alike will not challenge each other to grow. That sounds corny but I have
seen this at work in the relationship between my father (the school nerd) and
my stepmother (a former cheerleader) and how they strengthen each other.
Nevertheless, here are some specifics in the classic list format.
I am: A lover of science, a fast reader of books historical, allegorical and
sometimes sophomorical. Slender of build, longhaired and large footed. I work
too much and sleep too little. My best times at work are when I am explaining
something to a willing audience. Last year I decided to leave my baggage on
that stop and escaped carrying a handbag filled with marbles (another metaphor
I'm afraid). I can't run but I can walk faster then you. I am laughing, you
just don't know it yet. I'm 6'2" and 140 pounds When I walk through the forest
I examine the ants.
You are: Old enough to know better and Young enough not to care too much.
Still learning, and still loving it. Waaaay over blaming your parents for
ruining your life. A full person who wants but does not need a relationship.
Thin enough to be healthy, thick enough to be healthy. If you read my rambling
this far send me a note, a man can never have too many friends, the lover I
seek is hidden somewhere among them.