Hi Hon.. I know exactly how you feel,i used to be very much like you few years ago.Nothing would work,nothing would cheer me up.On my 18th birthday while everybody was cheering me up(in Italy the big party is when you are 18 and not 21)the only thing i wanted was to die,but that didn't happened.I did try few times to kill myself but obiously that didn't work either.Then,a couple of years ago i just had a terrible raw with my ex,work wasn't going well and i was generally feeling a mess,i locked myself in my bedroom with a bottle of JD and some painkillers and really loud music.I started to cry and cry,put a bounch of pils in my hand and fill the glass,whaited for few minutes and then put my hand closere and closer to my mounth.Something stopped me,i knew i couldn't do it and is then that i got mad.Mad to my self fot been such a coward and not even been able to finish waht i started.I just looked at the pills,trough them on the floor and smashed the glass against the wall.Ahhhh.Memories. How i feel now??Numb.I AM DEAD,but inside and i'm constantly vegetating,i don't even look for a sense in my life anymore: i know there is none. m;)
I know exactly how you feel,i used to be very much like you few years ago.Nothing would work,nothing would cheer me up.On my 18th birthday while everybody was cheering me up(in Italy the big party is when you are 18 and not 21)the only thing i wanted was to die,but that didn't happened.I did try few times to kill myself but obiously that didn't work either.Then,a couple of years ago i just had a terrible raw with my ex,work wasn't going well and i was generally feeling a mess,i locked myself in my bedroom with a bottle of JD and some painkillers and really loud music.I started to cry and cry,put a bounch of pils in my hand and fill the glass,whaited for few minutes and then put my hand closere and closer to my mounth.Something stopped me,i knew i couldn't do it and is then that i got mad.Mad to my self fot been such a coward and not even been able to finish waht i started.I just looked at the pills,trough them on the floor and smashed the glass against the wall.Ahhhh.Memories.
How i feel now??Numb.I AM DEAD,but inside and i'm constantly vegetating,i don't even look for a sense in my life anymore: i know there is none.
m;)
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