i had no intentions of living this way...
I was doing some thinking about how different everything one was one year ago
and i went back and read my livejournal entires from then to see what was going on...
incase you were wondering, My cat was sick, and i was celebrating me and seth being "together" for one year
thats silly...i supose that means around now would be two years
imagine if that happened?
I dont like to think of what-if's
i wonder at this time last year if i knew i was goign to Wentworth yet
at this time i didnt know that i would be working for Vanderwiel, and that i was goign to quit target in may
Remember that i worked at Target?
Remember how much i fucking hated that job?
remmeber how glad i am that i dont work there anymore
Chris and i were talking before dinner tonight, when everyone else doesnt know what to say to me anymore, chris has a lot to say, and can make me feel better
he told me if i was to learn anyhting from this, to not solve situations the way im used to solving them
meaning...the way i solved things back in november..
im really not sure where i would be without chris right now
hes the one who got me to go to the docters
i know everything isnt going ot be the same again, but i feel like if i feel like my self again
then ill feel okay in the situations that im in
im really trying...
be patient with me...
im not really tired...btu i supose i will lay down...
i dont want to go back to school.
but at the same time i need to get out of here for a while..
i miss my sister..
girlfriends like cassie+shuman are the kind that always know that you love them, even if you dotn get to talk or see them very often
i dont know if i consider my spring break and actual break. I think it was more like...trying to get through everyday with crying the least that i could
i wonder what my parents are thinking...
something about the counting crows is so comforting. I know so many people dont like them, but they are perfect for me. Listening to his voice just calms me down and lets me relax. and i can sing wicked loud in my car to them, and love it. They remind me of heather, and my sister, and of every part of my life since middleschool...
i told chris tongiht i want to marry a drummer
and i went back and read my livejournal entires from then to see what was going on...
incase you were wondering, My cat was sick, and i was celebrating me and seth being "together" for one year
thats silly...i supose that means around now would be two years
imagine if that happened?
I dont like to think of what-if's
i wonder at this time last year if i knew i was goign to Wentworth yet
at this time i didnt know that i would be working for Vanderwiel, and that i was goign to quit target in may
Remember that i worked at Target?
Remember how much i fucking hated that job?
remmeber how glad i am that i dont work there anymore
Chris and i were talking before dinner tonight, when everyone else doesnt know what to say to me anymore, chris has a lot to say, and can make me feel better
he told me if i was to learn anyhting from this, to not solve situations the way im used to solving them
meaning...the way i solved things back in november..
im really not sure where i would be without chris right now
hes the one who got me to go to the docters
i know everything isnt going ot be the same again, but i feel like if i feel like my self again
then ill feel okay in the situations that im in
im really trying...
be patient with me...
im not really tired...btu i supose i will lay down...
i dont want to go back to school.
but at the same time i need to get out of here for a while..
i miss my sister..
girlfriends like cassie+shuman are the kind that always know that you love them, even if you dotn get to talk or see them very often
i dont know if i consider my spring break and actual break. I think it was more like...trying to get through everyday with crying the least that i could
i wonder what my parents are thinking...
something about the counting crows is so comforting. I know so many people dont like them, but they are perfect for me. Listening to his voice just calms me down and lets me relax. and i can sing wicked loud in my car to them, and love it. They remind me of heather, and my sister, and of every part of my life since middleschool...
i told chris tongiht i want to marry a drummer