yall might not want to read this entry.. but I have alot on my mind and I need to let it out.
okay. lately I have been going through ALOT and I'm hiding so much stuff from so many people. I haven't told Scott and I haven't told Melissa. which is REALLY weird because they are usually the ONLY 2 who know everything. every time Scott ask me if everything is okay I lie to him and say yes everything is fine. but it's NOT.
for some reason this past week has been like my thinking about my grandma ALOT. and I try to find the good in dieing and everything BUT I always seem to not think that positive about it. I always get mad at God, knowing I shouldn't be mad at God because he actually did us a favor because she's now with him, and I always seem to cry and miss her and have the day I found out she died running through my head.
but what helped was today I had to write a paper in English about something that has happened in my life and how I felt about it. so me being me I wrote about my grandma.. and it's true.. writing stuff down makes you feel SO much better. after 1st period today I felt ALOT better.
lately for some weird reason me and Scott have kinda been fighting alot... and it's NOT his fault. I'm a VERY jealous person and every time I'm with him a girl calls him and I always start to think that he doesn't care about me... which I know is a lie because if he didn't then he would tell me. and so lately I've been really bitchie to him and I feel so bad. BUT... I've notice that I CAN'T let him go. he's WAY to awesome for that and I need to get over the whole jealous thing because I know that he's just friends with other girls.
So Scott... I'm REALLY sorry. you're so awesome and you shouldn't have to put with my immaturity... but I promise you that I'll get better. you're so awesome that I'm willing to do anything to have you.
on the other hand.. School's alright and it gets better everyday. but that's all I have to say about that.
okay well I'm out. this entry is long enough.
-Morg
for some reason this past week has been like my thinking about my grandma ALOT. and I try to find the good in dieing and everything BUT I always seem to not think that positive about it. I always get mad at God, knowing I shouldn't be mad at God because he actually did us a favor because she's now with him, and I always seem to cry and miss her and have the day I found out she died running through my head.
but what helped was today I had to write a paper in English about something that has happened in my life and how I felt about it. so me being me I wrote about my grandma.. and it's true.. writing stuff down makes you feel SO much better. after 1st period today I felt ALOT better.
lately for some weird reason me and Scott have kinda been fighting alot... and it's NOT his fault. I'm a VERY jealous person and every time I'm with him a girl calls him and I always start to think that he doesn't care about me... which I know is a lie because if he didn't then he would tell me. and so lately I've been really bitchie to him and I feel so bad. BUT... I've notice that I CAN'T let him go. he's WAY to awesome for that and I need to get over the whole jealous thing because I know that he's just friends with other girls.
So Scott... I'm REALLY sorry. you're so awesome and you shouldn't have to put with my immaturity... but I promise you that I'll get better. you're so awesome that I'm willing to do anything to have you.
on the other hand.. School's alright and it gets better everyday. but that's all I have to say about that.
okay well I'm out. this entry is long enough.
-Morg