I have learned to love the lie...
and have also fallen lovingly in love with motion city soundtrack, and further in absolute lust with fall out boy.
I live in the attic of the world. I always talk about minnesota as 'up here' like I've retreated up into the sky and some totally different planet. and in a lot of ways, it kind of is. If I had lived here, I could've been swimming since like, 6th grade. geeze, I'd rock by now, haha.
I really love college, it's so weird to me, because I thought that I would be kind of awkward and miserable, and actually, I'm all...out there. I've really honestly stopped caring what people thought about me. I do things to intentionally piss them off. I've never been one to do things just to judge a person's reaction, or see how biased people really are...and suddenly I am. I have so much more confidence, and I didn't even realize I had a lack of it. and I am retarded and emo and stupid and hyper and it's okay. I have crazy friends and a boyfriend who is just as weird as me (and who is, um, yea, uber hot) and I just...feel like I'm not living my own life.
It's like, I care, but at the same time, I don't care about anything, does that even make sense? not so much. Like, people can think or do or say whatever they want and I don't care, because they're 'people.' what I care about is what the people I choose to surround myself with say, and think and feel about anything.
and yet I'm totally okay with just...rolling with it. whatever happens, is meant to happen. life is supposed to work out this way, because damn it, God has a plan, and so far, I'm liking where his plan is taking me.
yes, little miss opinionated obsessed with politics might not be majoring in it anymore...ahhhhh. that is so scary to me, but I found something else I'm really good at and I really enjoy. communications. haha. however, I can become a speech writer (saweeet) or work with campaigns depending on what I do.
i so need to go talk to my advisor. oops. i can register for classes soon too, so it's like ahhh shit shit who's firing at us?
and i think things are ten times funnier here than i ever did at home.
i love you.
I live in the attic of the world. I always talk about minnesota as 'up here' like I've retreated up into the sky and some totally different planet. and in a lot of ways, it kind of is. If I had lived here, I could've been swimming since like, 6th grade. geeze, I'd rock by now, haha.
I really love college, it's so weird to me, because I thought that I would be kind of awkward and miserable, and actually, I'm all...out there. I've really honestly stopped caring what people thought about me. I do things to intentionally piss them off. I've never been one to do things just to judge a person's reaction, or see how biased people really are...and suddenly I am. I have so much more confidence, and I didn't even realize I had a lack of it. and I am retarded and emo and stupid and hyper and it's okay. I have crazy friends and a boyfriend who is just as weird as me (and who is, um, yea, uber hot) and I just...feel like I'm not living my own life.
It's like, I care, but at the same time, I don't care about anything, does that even make sense? not so much. Like, people can think or do or say whatever they want and I don't care, because they're 'people.' what I care about is what the people I choose to surround myself with say, and think and feel about anything.
and yet I'm totally okay with just...rolling with it. whatever happens, is meant to happen. life is supposed to work out this way, because damn it, God has a plan, and so far, I'm liking where his plan is taking me.
yes, little miss opinionated obsessed with politics might not be majoring in it anymore...ahhhhh. that is so scary to me, but I found something else I'm really good at and I really enjoy. communications. haha. however, I can become a speech writer (saweeet) or work with campaigns depending on what I do.
i so need to go talk to my advisor. oops. i can register for classes soon too, so it's like ahhh shit shit who's firing at us?
and i think things are ten times funnier here than i ever did at home.
i love you.