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*sigh* 6 years ago I thought I'd got away from the hell that was trying to keep my Step Dad happy, turns out almost 2190 days and 72 miles don't matter to him and he's still controlling what I do.
Earlier in the year my mum asked me to dog/house sit for her and Ken while they went on holiday over Easter, I said I was happy to, heck a chance to come back to The Shire and have some q time with my puppy, count me in! I checked then that Mike could come so that tickets could be booked and plans made around other visiters/work/etc and all was well.
Now Ken has decided that he can't deal with the idea of Mike being there and mum has once again given in to him saying if I do want Mike to come he will have to leave before they get home on Monday so that Ken doesn't know he was there, but don't worry, she'll give us the taxi money to get him to the station. Like that doesn't make me feel guilty and like we're a huge inconvenience at all, nope. All because mum can't deal with Ken gettnig stressy and she really neeeeds this holiday, and she doesn't have a spine to stand up to some guy so her daughter can have some company while doing her a favour. Like i really needed 12 years of him treating me like shit, like I don't deserve 3 days holiday with my boyfriend without having to creep round like a naughty child.
I am aware that this may seem a petty things to get so wound up over (but I hope you can see it is unfair!) but I guess with all the history behind it i'm a bit more affected than I should be. I really don't feel like doing this favour now, I still want to see my puppy and visit The Shire and walk though the woods and watch the sun rise over the hills but I do not want to do favours for people who are going to make me feel guilty and dictate to their grown up daughter (might not seem it while i'm throwing this strop) whom she can and can not have visit.
Earlier in the year my mum asked me to dog/house sit for her and Ken while they went on holiday over Easter, I said I was happy to, heck a chance to come back to The Shire and have some q time with my puppy, count me in! I checked then that Mike could come so that tickets could be booked and plans made around other visiters/work/etc and all was well.
Now Ken has decided that he can't deal with the idea of Mike being there and mum has once again given in to him saying if I do want Mike to come he will have to leave before they get home on Monday so that Ken doesn't know he was there, but don't worry, she'll give us the taxi money to get him to the station. Like that doesn't make me feel guilty and like we're a huge inconvenience at all, nope. All because mum can't deal with Ken gettnig stressy and she really neeeeds this holiday, and she doesn't have a spine to stand up to some guy so her daughter can have some company while doing her a favour. Like i really needed 12 years of him treating me like shit, like I don't deserve 3 days holiday with my boyfriend without having to creep round like a naughty child.
I am aware that this may seem a petty things to get so wound up over (but I hope you can see it is unfair!) but I guess with all the history behind it i'm a bit more affected than I should be. I really don't feel like doing this favour now, I still want to see my puppy and visit The Shire and walk though the woods and watch the sun rise over the hills but I do not want to do favours for people who are going to make me feel guilty and dictate to their grown up daughter (might not seem it while i'm throwing this strop) whom she can and can not have visit.