a step in a new dissapointment
i cant believe just how detatched ive been as of late.
from looking at a few entries, i saw it was tommy's birthday sometime this month, i think. either way, happy belated birthday bro. sorry for being so late with the wishes for good times. either way, love ya man.
i love all my friends. i miss every single one of you. miss hanging out with smiley as of late, since for quite a while we were getting pretty damn close.
but that seems to happen to me. a seperation from those who get close to me. its happened with all my friends and family. maybe its my own fault? who knows.
as cliche as it is for me, ive been feeling down because of a girl. once again, i like someone a whole lot, but i know i shouldnt even be bothering. it seems like it will end up the same as all the others. its like if i truly truly feel something for them, theres always a catch, and it seems that i always enter their lives at a hectic point, where i just might be the guy who helps them get through it, but theyll be with someone else when theyre out, leaving me behind again. and once again, i want to believe that things will be different, that it wont end the same. but i have very little hopes left inside of me.
god i hate feeling this way.
if i were someone else, id just beat the living shit out of myself for being such a bitch.
from looking at a few entries, i saw it was tommy's birthday sometime this month, i think. either way, happy belated birthday bro. sorry for being so late with the wishes for good times. either way, love ya man.
i love all my friends. i miss every single one of you. miss hanging out with smiley as of late, since for quite a while we were getting pretty damn close.
but that seems to happen to me. a seperation from those who get close to me. its happened with all my friends and family. maybe its my own fault? who knows.
as cliche as it is for me, ive been feeling down because of a girl. once again, i like someone a whole lot, but i know i shouldnt even be bothering. it seems like it will end up the same as all the others. its like if i truly truly feel something for them, theres always a catch, and it seems that i always enter their lives at a hectic point, where i just might be the guy who helps them get through it, but theyll be with someone else when theyre out, leaving me behind again. and once again, i want to believe that things will be different, that it wont end the same. but i have very little hopes left inside of me.
god i hate feeling this way.
if i were someone else, id just beat the living shit out of myself for being such a bitch.