i think im to much of a puss to put this in the email im sending you..
i cant express how much you mean to me Lindsey..
i have never felt the way you made me feel... it was amazing and fucking crazy at the same time!! i wish you weren't leaving.. we could work things out.. we could be happy.. i could make you happy... you could fix this awful feeling in my chest. help me breath the way i use to. help me be a better person.. cos you made me want to be one............. but i know that cant happen... you had your plans.. and im not part of them.. i wish i was.
i know ending it was my idea.. but running away was yours... i wish i could be strong enough to take this all in stride.. but im fucking falling apart.. this really fucking hurts.. and all i want is it to stop..... so just go... run to California live the life you want and don't worry about mine... cos its gonna take me some time to forget how amazing you can make me feel and to get over you. part of me is gonna hate you for leaving.. but part will wish you a happy journey and hope that maybe someday we will get another chance to be something more then this...
im sitting here high at 3am trying not to break down for the 10th time tonight.. all of this is making me crazy.. why did i have to see you today...
i have never felt the way you made me feel... it was amazing and fucking crazy at the same time!! i wish you weren't leaving.. we could work things out.. we could be happy.. i could make you happy... you could fix this awful feeling in my chest. help me breath the way i use to. help me be a better person.. cos you made me want to be one............. but i know that cant happen... you had your plans.. and im not part of them.. i wish i was.
i know ending it was my idea.. but running away was yours... i wish i could be strong enough to take this all in stride.. but im fucking falling apart.. this really fucking hurts.. and all i want is it to stop..... so just go... run to California live the life you want and don't worry about mine... cos its gonna take me some time to forget how amazing you can make me feel and to get over you. part of me is gonna hate you for leaving.. but part will wish you a happy journey and hope that maybe someday we will get another chance to be something more then this...
im sitting here high at 3am trying not to break down for the 10th time tonight.. all of this is making me crazy.. why did i have to see you today...