im accidentally in love
i am hostessing at mahi mahs with mallory, claire and renee. [come visit!] im excited. $6 an hour x 8 hour shifts x 5 days a week x 3 weeks = C A L I F O R N I A !!!! all my prayers are answered. but i doubt ill be able to make it out there before august because she is going to be gone the whole month of july. when i think of how long its been since the last time ive seen her, three months shouldnt seem like that long but it does.
my tonsils or lack there of are finally feeling better. i can eat/swallow/brush my teeth no problem. plus i have 26 extra pills of vicadin! hydrocodine party at my house!
im beginning to wonder why i bother to call some of the people i know "friends". its ok tho...they can keep playing their stupid games, they are never going to win anyway.
but thanks to the people that actually care <3
i feel so out of control. nothing happens the way i plan it. i feel like i have no power over my actions...and no self restraint. i dont think of the consequences until its too late. ive possibly ruined a really good thing. im sorry if i made anything harder on you. i never meant to do that. i never meant for anything. what i want is never what i need. so i guess the next step is to figure out what i need.
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my tonsils or lack there of are finally feeling better. i can eat/swallow/brush my teeth no problem. plus i have 26 extra pills of vicadin! hydrocodine party at my house!
im beginning to wonder why i bother to call some of the people i know "friends". its ok tho...they can keep playing their stupid games, they are never going to win anyway.
but thanks to the people that actually care <3
i feel so out of control. nothing happens the way i plan it. i feel like i have no power over my actions...and no self restraint. i dont think of the consequences until its too late. ive possibly ruined a really good thing. im sorry if i made anything harder on you. i never meant to do that. i never meant for anything. what i want is never what i need. so i guess the next step is to figure out what i need.
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