can you hear me?

[morexinfiniti]

this is a excerpt from an online conversation i had with ryan brake. he wrote this to me while i was away..i love ryan brake and he really does make me feel better.

so your last name is wheeler
and i wish i was a stealer
i would take your name and all your cool friends
ok ok stop.
no more of that poem
a new poem, something better
how about this:
with the summer comes thoughts
and small beach plots
of sun and surf
and you and i
the dirt and turf
and a long fly (homerun)
but more than all of that
summer brings memories
and future times
of us dancing in rain
or coffee shop blues
grass stains
and running crews
so feel better for now, its summer time soon
ill be home, and so will you

<3

im really sick. why cant the doctors fix me? when can i be normal again? i hate this. my thoughts are all soupy. nothing makes sense. everything is disorganized. and disconnected. is it the medicine or is it me? when i sleep i have horrible dreams. they are so real. i was raped by a skinny man on my couch, i burnt the house down while cooking bacon, i killed a kitten while i was playing with it. im so tired. i miss brownies and pie and cheeseburgers. goodnight