Ball and Chain I call my own
Cuz I was always taught that boy meets girl,
fall in love get married and forget the world,
nine months later sweet baby's on the way.
Isn't that what they used to say?
Sublime always has this way of making life okay.
Not that it really wasn't before, but ....well ok I guess it wasn't.
I had, still have, so many expectations for myself.
I didn't meet any of them, or maybe I did and just didn't realize it.
I feel lost.
I feel scared,
and yet free at the same time.
I don't know exactly what I want,
but I know I want to be me.
I'm tired of trying so hard,
and yet I feel the urge to work harder than ever
I want to find myself, except I won't let myself.
In the period of my life where the decisions I make are most crucial,
I can't seem to make any.
I thought college would be different from high school, but not really.
I'm holding myself back, except I don't know from what.
I thought I knew myself so well senior year, but I really didn't.
I want to surf,
I want to start reading books, that actually stimulate my mind,
I want to feel inspired again
I really thankful to have such caring friends,
and to go to such an amazing school,
I'm extremely happy with everything on the outside of my body,
yet frustrated with everything on the inside of it
My life seems to be a walking contradiction,
and yet I'm content.
And with that I leave you with my most favorite quote from Sublime:
"Well I can't take pity on men of this kind,
even though he now takes it...in the behind.......DATE RAPE"
:)
fall in love get married and forget the world,
nine months later sweet baby's on the way.
Isn't that what they used to say?
Sublime always has this way of making life okay.
Not that it really wasn't before, but ....well ok I guess it wasn't.
I had, still have, so many expectations for myself.
I didn't meet any of them, or maybe I did and just didn't realize it.
I feel lost.
I feel scared,
and yet free at the same time.
I don't know exactly what I want,
but I know I want to be me.
I'm tired of trying so hard,
and yet I feel the urge to work harder than ever
I want to find myself, except I won't let myself.
In the period of my life where the decisions I make are most crucial,
I can't seem to make any.
I thought college would be different from high school, but not really.
I'm holding myself back, except I don't know from what.
I thought I knew myself so well senior year, but I really didn't.
I want to surf,
I want to start reading books, that actually stimulate my mind,
I want to feel inspired again
I really thankful to have such caring friends,
and to go to such an amazing school,
I'm extremely happy with everything on the outside of my body,
yet frustrated with everything on the inside of it
My life seems to be a walking contradiction,
and yet I'm content.
And with that I leave you with my most favorite quote from Sublime:
"Well I can't take pity on men of this kind,
even though he now takes it...in the behind.......DATE RAPE"
:)