I wanted everything but this, all I want is happiness

[morethanblond26]

So I was at the dentist today
And some really nice, old lady in the waiting room complemented me on my hair
I thanked her and then we started talking
I told her I go to Dreyfoos Highschool of the Arts and that I'm a senior

"Oh you're a Senior! How nice! I hope you're enjoying it."
"Yea, I guess I am"
"Oh, well make sure you enjoy every single moment of it.
Make the most out this year, because you will never get the chance to live it ever again."

It made me wonder.
Am I really living my senior year to the fullest?
I have my pictures, my memories...
but am I realllly enjoying my time as a senior as well as I know I can?
It seems like I've been spending a lot of time thinking about what I'm ABOUT to do,
instead of actually doing it.
OR thinking about what I WANT to do,
instead of actually doing it.
Or thinking about what I don't have that I wanted by my senior year,
instead of actually getting it.

That needs to change.
Right now.
It doesn't have to be picture perfect.
Or everything that I wanted it to be.
I just wanna have fun.
No more hesitation for this girl.

Whose with me?