And I, want to break free, talk to me..I can feel you falling...
Dude, hurricanes bring badness.
Ever since the hurricanes things have been crappy.
Nothing seems like its falling into place,
or that it fits.
Everyhting seems so far away, but so close at the same time.
It feels like if you just try a little harder, you'll get what you want.....
but it only leaves you wanting more
and fighting for more....fighting for something you'll never get.
I was walking through the mall the other day...and it was playing
CHRISTMAS MUSIC!!!
It was SO WEIRD.
That means it's practically the holidays.
I always try to embrace the fact that my birthday is the day after Christmas, but deep down it really bothers me.
Every year I'm always over-shadowed by Jesus.
Not to put him down or anything, Jesus was a cool dude,
It's just a birthday is supposed to be the one day that's special because of YOU, nobody else but you.
And I don't really have that.
I don't really think I've ever had that.
I probably sound spoiled right now, actually I know I sound spoiled right now,
I could be a lot worse off. I know that.
It's Thaksgiving damnit, I need to be thankful for what I have.
I'm usually really good at that.
And I'm mad at myself for not feeling thaat way.
It's just hard to be thankful for a family that might be falling apart.
I dunno WHY I'm writing about this.
My birthday isn't for another month or so.
I'm getting very emo in my old age....I need to stop.
However, it does NOT feel like the most wonderful time of the year.
Ever since the hurricanes things have been crappy.
Nothing seems like its falling into place,
or that it fits.
Everyhting seems so far away, but so close at the same time.
It feels like if you just try a little harder, you'll get what you want.....
but it only leaves you wanting more
and fighting for more....fighting for something you'll never get.
I was walking through the mall the other day...and it was playing
CHRISTMAS MUSIC!!!
It was SO WEIRD.
That means it's practically the holidays.
I always try to embrace the fact that my birthday is the day after Christmas, but deep down it really bothers me.
Every year I'm always over-shadowed by Jesus.
Not to put him down or anything, Jesus was a cool dude,
It's just a birthday is supposed to be the one day that's special because of YOU, nobody else but you.
And I don't really have that.
I don't really think I've ever had that.
I probably sound spoiled right now, actually I know I sound spoiled right now,
I could be a lot worse off. I know that.
It's Thaksgiving damnit, I need to be thankful for what I have.
I'm usually really good at that.
And I'm mad at myself for not feeling thaat way.
It's just hard to be thankful for a family that might be falling apart.
I dunno WHY I'm writing about this.
My birthday isn't for another month or so.
I'm getting very emo in my old age....I need to stop.
However, it does NOT feel like the most wonderful time of the year.