and we do this over and over again...
my back hurts SO BADLY lately. i told my mom to take me to a chiropractor. it sucks. maybe tomorrow i'll claim it hurts too bad for me to go to school.
i still need a homecoming dress, and a date. all my friends have dates, it makes me feel lonely. :(
maria just told me she's getting married o.o
i want a coach wallet and one of those heart toggle Tiffany necklaces. cute stuff :)
i'm working at the zoo for their halloween haunted house thing. $20 a night, and for some reason i want to say i'll be working 11 days. but i don't think it's that much. i wish, i could use a random $220 ^_^
maroon 5 is so awesome. their songs are so blatently sexual. i love it.
i hope we win this match against south dade.
topgun is cool. LOVE the costume idea, glad we're finally DONE.
school is...fluctuating? i guess i can say that. english, i won't get above a D in that class this nine weeks, for sure. enviro, i'm scared i'm doing bad. everything else, i'm pretty confident.
i'm so busy. i can't remember ever having this many things to remember. senior year is hectic! every saturday i have plans for something other than bowling. my team is going to start hating me. and football games, and after parties, pep rallies, and dances, plus everything not related to school that i'm still obligated to do. i find myself making 'to-do' lists. i am NOT a to-do list type of person! crazy stuff.
wendy's boyfriend/ex/whatever he is today, was like...trying to flirt with me in attempts to make wendy jealous. this dude spoke more words to me today than in the past like...5 months.
i'm number 44 in my graduating class now. apparently they had the juniors mixed in with the seniors. so now my goal is to get #39 or higher, since before it was to be in above 50. you know, i'm usually very hard on myself, and although i know i could have done a LOT better, i think i'm doing pretty well. i mean, i strive for perfection, although i rarely reach it, and to be proud of myself like i am now...it's cool. i can finally pat myself and say 'hey self, look at how good you're doing!' as opposed to 'self, you suck. do better.'
the future scares me. what i decide in the next few months could ultimately alter the path i take. what if i go to the wrong university, or don't get accepted into places i think i have a sure shot at? what if i get all the way through college and then realize i don't want to be in the FBI, or psychiatry is too tough of a profession for me to handle? what pressure. i wish i had someone to guide me. to say 'go there, take this class, do this internship' knowing it will benefit me in the best way possible. it's hard when you're basically on your own for this huge life changing decisions.
my dad's trying to be uber supportive, asking me what i want in a college so he can help me, my goals, while still keeping in mind the type of person i am, and how i'd survive in different places. he's convinced i'm too timid to go to NYU, and that Gainesville's too boring, too much of a college town. but how do i know what i want? i can be quiet and calm and shy, or i can be loud and outgoing. it just depends, you know? i honestly believe he wants me to strive for Stanford. he mentions that darn school all the time. football games, newsletters, any info he can get. that's the only school he tends to talk about so highly. and don't get me wrong, if they'll take me, i'm there. but California...that's so far. i know i want to get away from Miami, but do i want to be 3 timezones away? across an entire country? i don't know of i could do it. i don't even know how to wash my own laundry...
anyways, my back is klling me, and now i feel like i have a freaking cold. my sinuses feel weird and my head hurts. IT NEVER ENDS.
ttyl, <3.
i still need a homecoming dress, and a date. all my friends have dates, it makes me feel lonely. :(
maria just told me she's getting married o.o
i want a coach wallet and one of those heart toggle Tiffany necklaces. cute stuff :)
i'm working at the zoo for their halloween haunted house thing. $20 a night, and for some reason i want to say i'll be working 11 days. but i don't think it's that much. i wish, i could use a random $220 ^_^
maroon 5 is so awesome. their songs are so blatently sexual. i love it.
i hope we win this match against south dade.
topgun is cool. LOVE the costume idea, glad we're finally DONE.
school is...fluctuating? i guess i can say that. english, i won't get above a D in that class this nine weeks, for sure. enviro, i'm scared i'm doing bad. everything else, i'm pretty confident.
i'm so busy. i can't remember ever having this many things to remember. senior year is hectic! every saturday i have plans for something other than bowling. my team is going to start hating me. and football games, and after parties, pep rallies, and dances, plus everything not related to school that i'm still obligated to do. i find myself making 'to-do' lists. i am NOT a to-do list type of person! crazy stuff.
wendy's boyfriend/ex/whatever he is today, was like...trying to flirt with me in attempts to make wendy jealous. this dude spoke more words to me today than in the past like...5 months.
i'm number 44 in my graduating class now. apparently they had the juniors mixed in with the seniors. so now my goal is to get #39 or higher, since before it was to be in above 50. you know, i'm usually very hard on myself, and although i know i could have done a LOT better, i think i'm doing pretty well. i mean, i strive for perfection, although i rarely reach it, and to be proud of myself like i am now...it's cool. i can finally pat myself and say 'hey self, look at how good you're doing!' as opposed to 'self, you suck. do better.'
the future scares me. what i decide in the next few months could ultimately alter the path i take. what if i go to the wrong university, or don't get accepted into places i think i have a sure shot at? what if i get all the way through college and then realize i don't want to be in the FBI, or psychiatry is too tough of a profession for me to handle? what pressure. i wish i had someone to guide me. to say 'go there, take this class, do this internship' knowing it will benefit me in the best way possible. it's hard when you're basically on your own for this huge life changing decisions.
my dad's trying to be uber supportive, asking me what i want in a college so he can help me, my goals, while still keeping in mind the type of person i am, and how i'd survive in different places. he's convinced i'm too timid to go to NYU, and that Gainesville's too boring, too much of a college town. but how do i know what i want? i can be quiet and calm and shy, or i can be loud and outgoing. it just depends, you know? i honestly believe he wants me to strive for Stanford. he mentions that darn school all the time. football games, newsletters, any info he can get. that's the only school he tends to talk about so highly. and don't get me wrong, if they'll take me, i'm there. but California...that's so far. i know i want to get away from Miami, but do i want to be 3 timezones away? across an entire country? i don't know of i could do it. i don't even know how to wash my own laundry...
anyways, my back is klling me, and now i feel like i have a freaking cold. my sinuses feel weird and my head hurts. IT NEVER ENDS.
ttyl, <3.