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Funny how you think you know someone well and when you finally see them and spend time with them in persom its like you never knew them to begin with. I dont know....I just know that looks DO matter because when "he" didnt see me it was lovely and now that he has seen me its just like bleh. SO yea, I'll have to get over it. Work is going really good. I caught on really quick. Im barely beginning to accept myself and not be so mean to myself. Im not happy with my appearence at the moment but I will work hard to get to where I want to be. So basically I just am going to seize the moment. So ive finally started saving for Argentina.And sice my grandparents, parents ,and family in argentina are helping me out ALOT I am serious about living there now. I just figure that since theres nothing here for me...that I should move around and see what else there is out there. Who knows , maybe Ill be happy in Argentina and find out how i really want to spend my life.This weekend is Vegas. Im doing the makeup for all of the girls and women in my unlces wedding. Im excited becuase I'll have the opportunity to show my stuff and get new photos for my portfolio and cuz ill have a little break from everything. I was listening to Damien Rice all night last night and it just made me want someone soo badly. I laid there, just feeling that need to have someone to talk to and to cuddle and to kiss and share my deep thoughts with.One day Ill have that. But for now im just trying to to think about that stuff because it will only drag me down. I just need to focus on my job and saving money and finishing school. When love comes, it will come.