Here I go Again...
It happens every now and then.
Everything in my life becomes irritating. Everything starts to look different...more beautiful...but scary...
Maybe I need to up the meds.
I've spent a lovely 12 yrs avoiding drama, but I have now managed to torture myself by letting it back in.
Mid life crisis at 32?
I find myself wanting to go in two completely different directions.
I'm questioning my past choices and pondering future ones.
Perplexed.
Who am I and who do I want to be. Can I be more than one person without resorting to split personalities?
I hate change, but I crave it.
How bad could I fuck up my own life? Should I find out?
What is happiness?
Is it possible?
Suddenly, nothing that was important to me is anymore.
Only one thing matters and it feels so familiar.
It's like all these little insanities are driving me towards a doom I can't even begin to imagine.
I should suppress.
I can't.
Everything in my life becomes irritating. Everything starts to look different...more beautiful...but scary...
Maybe I need to up the meds.
I've spent a lovely 12 yrs avoiding drama, but I have now managed to torture myself by letting it back in.
Mid life crisis at 32?
I find myself wanting to go in two completely different directions.
I'm questioning my past choices and pondering future ones.
Perplexed.
Who am I and who do I want to be. Can I be more than one person without resorting to split personalities?
I hate change, but I crave it.
How bad could I fuck up my own life? Should I find out?
What is happiness?
Is it possible?
Suddenly, nothing that was important to me is anymore.
Only one thing matters and it feels so familiar.
It's like all these little insanities are driving me towards a doom I can't even begin to imagine.
I should suppress.
I can't.